In my childhood,I had a very bad nightmare. We were in a grassy area, there was some mountains in my sight. I was talking to the girl and suddenly her eyes turned red and a volcano explosion occured, covering everything in flames. From what my parents told me, I know that I used to burn small paper pieces than I caused a small fire and was traumatized by that. I remember this fear of fire very well, I remember seeing flames here and there in the walls, remember a bad dream where my mother burns the bed. The fear of fire was unusual for me back then. I also suffered from bipolar disorder in my teenage years, where I started making up memories about how I killed someone when I was child, how I had a different name and my new name was given to me after I was changed to a different person and was purified from my sins. Some neighbour of mine offered hypnosis therapy and said that I was a samurai in my past life, I killed someone and have guilt for that. Something is very weird but I just don't know what is it.
The girl in my dreams was just like the girl in pic related, upcoming game Pragmata. I also believed that I made a promise in my childhood to some girl, maybe an alien girl far away? I don't know if you have watched Elfen Lied but that anime meant a lot to me back when I watched when I was a kid.
Also, when I was creating fake memories about my childhood, I was thinking that everyone I know is working for CIA or other agencies. I have a memory of a transport helicopter, with 2 rotors landing in front of my house when I was a baby.
I was born in 2001, I also had fake memories of being born earlier but still in 2001 or late 2000. Also, I learned to read and write on my own from television when I was a child, when I was 4 years old. I used to hang out in internet as early as 2006 or so. I remember old web and would hang out in it for hours every day. Those old amvs of elfen lied was my obsession, and I always thought there was some mystery in my life and in those times I remember being distracted by mystery hunt of UFO's and bigfoot in GTA San Andreas, which was very popular in that time.
My parents say that I used to act as if I am 2 people at the same time and talk to myself.
To sum it all up, do you think that there is a mystery in my childhood or did being exposed to fiction and media and learning to read at that age and to surf at the internet made me a daydreamer at that age and those fake memories were just due to my psychosis?