my friend killed herself

I wasn't certain what board to post this on. This is a photo of me. I recently lost my friend to suicide. She overdosed on cocaine in order to kill herself. I want to make this post a memorial for her. I was in love with her but I havent seen her in years. The cops visited me in the middle of the night to tell me. I'm the person who got the lainchan tattoo. it says 'wintermute'. I also have SEL tattooed on my face. I dont know if im lain. I just miss my friend. but ive already accepted she is gone. I hope this thread wont be deleted. I just want you guys to know I love her and i know she also loves me. rest in peace melanie.

Really sorry to hear that. I kind of get the feeling some but never someone I was close to that I can for sure confirm is gone.

That's sad as hell, man. I wish there was something I could say to make things better, but it's just sad.

Overdosing on stimulants sounds like a tough way to go, sorry to hear that D: May she rest in the wired via this thread, rest in peace Melanie

hey you, i think we've met before. I'm sorry about what happened. I hope you're hanging in there.. I can't feel what you're feeling, but I've lost some people before too and i know it can be rough like that. if i can do anything for u or just provide company let me know okay?

>>7442 I'm going to write a book. It is intended to be very long and philosophical. I'm OP. Lain Iwakura is the main character of the book. The book goes into depth about a memoir I wrote and published. I hope the book will be read by many others. As it stands I have about 19 pages. Maybe I will post the book on lainchan along with the memoir. Lain Iwakura is the main character of both stories. Melanie is also a character in my story. The premise is that this is lain IRL and she is the ONLY space alien. It's a very complicated story. I hope people like it.

>>7440 I will tattoo her name on my face soon. It will state Melanie (J. Flores). Jocelyn Flores is a woman who killed herself. she was 'dating' xxxtentacion, the popular rap artist who was murder. im 25 years old.

>>7438 I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a friend to suicide is rough. The fact you've already accepted that she is gone is pretty remarkable (I struggle with accepting that people I've known are dead). I look forward to reading your book, also what a great way to honor Melanie. On what board do plan on posting the book?

>>7446 Thankyou. Yes, I already accept Melanie is gone I instantly accepted it. I guess the literature board. but it's not even close to done I mean I just started writing it. who knows how long its gonna take to complete the book.

Rip man, its really hard to overdose on cocaine without a compounding condition or drug. you know best and not to fill your mind with rage but do you think maybe someone laced it? Like even just by carelessness of handling multiple different drugs together? Again im not trying to disturb you further and you would know details, and we are all responsible for our own actions, but if someone else played a part in being responsible for this you deserve justice or to at least know. Again sorry if my post only irritates you, you seem like someone who maybe already knows everything I am saying here, but just in case you dont because you arent into drugs much I wanted to say it. Drugs are demonized sometimes fairly I just dont want anyones death that was a result of a dealers carelessness or greediness to to be put on someone who maybe that day was just trying to have a good time, get through the day, whatever their reasons are for using. ultimately above all I just want to give you my condolences, and hope you can find peace. Every day you live your friends memory lives on, and everything you have learned from her, and through you and everyone elses lives she touched. It all meant something for the life of you and all of us even in small ways like you sharing this post, and it was all important.

Not that anyone should care, but this thread made me physically cry. OP, I hope you find some way to feel better as soon as possible.

Im very sorry to hear that, its a very bitter situation i hope you find the strength to get trough this. I dont know what else to say, i dont know you or your friend obviously, but i can tell its a terribly deep loss for you and somehow i get a feeling she was a special person with of facets but now lost forver. Once more my deepest condonlences and i hope you find the strenght and courage you need to carry on and honor your friends memories, hopefully she is in a better place now.

>>7449 I know. if there was fentanyl involved I don't know anything about it. As far as I know it was just cocaine. I'm not going to look for justice, maybe I should. but im just going to grieve. I think ill be grieving for a long time. >>7451 It makes me cry cuz I known her since middle school. she had a crush on me and I had a crush on her but we never dated each other. I thought to myself 'you're such a pretty girl, i dont know why you think you're not pretty.' then i started crying. so i miss her a lot. >>7455 thankyou anon and thankyou for all your posts guys it means a lot. i'm 25 years old. I never experienced a death before except my grandfather died a while ago.

>>7456 Understandable, there is no should here if that is not what you are feeling then it is not necessary and grieving is all you need. Nothing wrong with that and perhaps even what is best.

my book is complete! I'm OP. Lain Iwakura is the main character of the book. I hope you guys like it! https://drive.google.com/file/d/1da4hLB7v-3J-HxRiY2QJrvDtLVJi63ap/view?usp=drivesdk

Hello guys. I'm OP. I wanted to try to help the SEL community so I'm working on an analysis of the PSX Serial Experiments Lain video game. I will post my rough draft, but this is incomplete. It's a lot to go through, so I will come back with another update when it's done. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1YuvotQf2D_Nr-hgWNGp3KfkXszA7md_7/view?usp=drive_link for reference, I was using this site that hosts a simplistic version of this game https://laingame.net/ so once I'm done with this I will post my final version.

I've also lost one friend to suicide as well. Suicide is just a part of life, its relatively common to know someone who committed suicide. And I decided later on to respect their decision, I don't believe it is the answer to our human suffering, but I accept and understand their decision. I think we as adults can all understand their decision, we kinda get it. You know? Why they took that path... What else can we do but accept, forgive, express gratitude, and move on with our lives? Life is suffering and no one knows what they are doing. I'm sorry for you loss. May many bright people and fun experiences come into your life soon.

Man, I'm envious of her. Where did she get so much cocaine from?

>>8261 I absolute love black ppl, except for this guy here.

>>7472 "My lips tasted the Milk only realize I did not like it for the Milk was of inconsequence" I liked this line

Hello OP Here to return to this thread. I want to tell you my legal name is Lain Iwakura. I had made the altercation a while ago, but yes, my legal name is now Lain Iwakura. I did this for Melanie. I thought I was her Lain. this is a video of me: https://youtu.be/hIuiQdYNB2s?si=lfbCKbKdt24FNhFH

you are not lain. you will never be. lain is a noumenon, not a phenomenon. you are just an interface. i wish i was neet'ing all time and having existential crisis while on drugs or theraphy. but im studying, working and forced to talk with people while having crisis. being away from wired is a curse. codes are the real drug. wake up.

>>8275 Man, I make a sweet post about my name, but this is the response I get. "hey buddy, while you're minding your own business, I'm out here talking to people! Programming! I'm better than you!" thanks a lot my friend.

>>8274 I sincerely hope this is a joke. Attaching yourself to some anime like that is... not very intelligent.

>>8277 "Intelligent" is when we efficiently move to our goal. What is the goal here?

>>8277 joke is one thing, its more of an internet rabbit hole i made for no reason. however I'm not lying, as far as you know.

>>8274 I'm sorry to ask you this, but are you on drugs or are you legit mentally handicapped? I mean the way you talk is even worse than what i see from schizophrenics, and i usually see this from people who are either just straight retarded, or old and demented, or very-very drunk, or any linear combination of these.

>>7438 Sorry for you loss, with time things don't get better but they do get easier. Hope you do well in the future.

A Girls only i can Love no given for my. After days she see so bad she makes in my life. Transformy-me in monster. And after she try aroud another girl for my, but never work and now i feel fulish. My hearth one latter is full black off islamism and other blue off catolicism. The rejections and humiliation i pass after (kitty) humiliated my in so many forms transforme me in indescritible person. I aways think in she but never like relacioship, no more, never more because my hearth is black and blue and full fire

Kitty, who you make my heart??? For destroyd every my hope?