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i consider myself lain irl this is a description of my mind i invented my own philosphy called nornihlism. look at the screenshot for my detailed description of what is that i'm experiencing or pardon if something i have typed is illogical. i have a teardrop tattoo on my face.

i forgot to mention if i close my eyes i looks like the blackness of of outer space or if i rub my eyes i see these distinct alien neko eyes and i feel scared i'm schizophrenic i once hallucinated a rainbow butterfly i call this the universe butterfly

the following is a copy of my neocities site. it includes a poem. a book. also a videogame. https://thehiddendragoon.neocities.org i will stop post unless anyone has any questions i guess. nordoubt .,; .kklnor .,; . - the most beautiful word possible or psilocybin ; adjective definition: the presence or absence of doubt. https://archive.org/details/flores-or-halcyon-blossoms https://archive.org/details/the-dxm-archives-by-lain-vogel https://dxm-addict.bandcamp.com/album/triplec-fantasy https://dxm-addict.bandcamp.com/album/misinterpret-sacrifice 0 hygeine + excercise 1 book 2 hours + internet forums 1 hour 2 book 2 hours + internet forums 1 hour 3 listen to music - i'm collecting cd's particularly jazz music https://delicious-fruit.com/ratings/game_details.php?id=18484 i apoligize. i got a false teardop. i realize the alien is ancient thing.

The thing where you see alien neko eyes when you have your eyes closed isn't anything to worry about. I get it too. There's some people with similar experiences here https://www.quora.com/Why-do-I-see-eyes-looking-back-at-me-when-I-close-my-eyes-or-a-face-or-a-mouth Also, when I was meditating earlier today I noticed that the purples waves I usually get with my eyes closed could be seen when my eyes are open if I focused long enough on a single point. I thought that was pretty cool. Pretty cool post OP. I used to believe the universe was communicating with me through repeating numbers, and I thought mere coincidences had meaning. I thought that if I stopped believing in this (having faith) then the universe (as a divine entity) would punish me. This belief system manifested for me after a LOT of stress (and smoking weed at the same time) and it took a few years before I managed to delete it from my mind. Perhaps you are experiencing something similar. Psychiatry calls that kind of thing "ideas and delusions of reference". Carl Jung calls them "synchronicity". Probability theory would call it... something else.

>>7032 I can't see the neocities site, it's just a black page.

>I am the center That sounds worse than geocentrism. There's two ways to reply to this. Regarding the "philosophy" which from what I have gathered is just nihilism with extra narcissism and delusion. While touching on Descarte's cognito ergo sum but not exploring it much further. Ironically also calling yourself Lain in all of this while SEL at least from my interpretation delves more in the idea which gets explicitly stated that everyone's connected and implies there's no real center if Lain is a manifestation of the collective consciousness in some way. There's obviously more to say but that alone sounds more profound to me. And directly addressing you as a person where I'd say you might want to take a break from the wired for a bit to get your deassociative feelings and dysphoria under control. And take it easy with the cough syrup. Since chances are you're not a fiction-gender or a lain-kin. I wish you well, fellow lain (not THE lain).

>>7036 the text is hidden you must highlight it but i copied it on the post >>7032 >>7037 huh im also wintermute. i'm not a narcissicist. just a lainon. i lost my girlfriend. i like to call myself wintermute since it's humble not speak. i like to call myself lucifer due to my luciferian features. if i could return in several years with evidence of the appendages (wings, tail) growing on my body i would. it might take decades to grow. but the world will know. some people already know. i know. once you guys see me walking down the street with demon wings & a tail you might convert to nornihilism yourself. also sober six months off cough syrup. it's a permanent repercussion of my prior abuse. i also dont know how else to explain phenomenia like for example: i set my browser to fit half the screen, then as im reading lainchan the posts on one half of the screen scroll up & down. my mind must be conscious of the computer. I think my philosophy is interesting. but i'm just a person. my mind also becomes more intelligent when the moon goes out. the sound of music becomes more vivid. how do explain it. i'm an alien. i'll prove it to the world once my body grows out. yes i'm schizophrenic but this is too real.

>>7029 Nigga, you abuse cough syrup, adopt the personalities and names of others who demonstrates the traits you wish you had (thereby denying your true reality), and each one of your observations is an attempt to hyperbolize everyday events through either misidentification or reasociation with something worth talking about. Your issue is that you hate yourself and your reality, that you cannot see the beauty inherent in the world you inhabit, falling back on mysticism to create wonder in your bland and miserable life. Your philosophy of everyone revolving about themselves indicates to me a distinct lack of strong empathy for any individual, as anyone with any sort of even romantic relationship will understand how quickly your outlook on life can become intertwined with the lives of those you care for. Stay off cough syrup, go to the zoo, go on a hike, look at some architecture. Observe the beauties of the works of life, the works of earth, and the works of man. This is your true path to happiness and motivation. You are not just a static force in this world, you can build things and affect your own life in meaningful ways by labor and willpower.