I need someone to help me.

I am having thoughts that are not my own. I believe very adamantly that the purpose of life is life itself, and now I am having invasive thoughts to kill myself. I would never think this. These are not my thoughts. In the past I have seen black blurry spherical objects flying around me, hitting me with some invisible light. These things shined light on my crouch area, a strong light, it felt stronger than an xray. I immediately developed dark growing moles on my skin where these things hit me with light. I have since removed the moles. Much later on I am visited by another one of these black blurry spherical objects. Much larger in size. I was dreaming, but my dream was modified, as in my thoughts were too clear my thinking ability and speed in the dream felt much faster than possible. In the dream I was forcefully rationalizing absolute hatred for all women because of the actions of a woman in my dream. I noticed something was off in the dream and I woke up and saw the spherical object by my bed side. I screamed and pulled back, this machine had tiny tethers attached to my head, as I pulled back I felt the tethers break. The machine was spherically elipsical in shape, roughly the size of a computer box, and had a red light. The previous machines are smaller than a nail. The top of the machine was open, this one has been modified to create tools on command. The machine appeared to be man made, the tools I recognized were of human design. My thoughts are sometimes blanked out by something, as in I lose focus, as in something is stopping me from thinking. This goes against my belief system. I believe very strongly that one must always do something, these thoughts stopping are not willing. Now that I am creating something, these thoughts have amped up to 100%. I am getting raped by transexuals in my dreams, I can feel it in my dreams and see it clearly. I need help. This was the night before last night. My thoughts are being changed by something. Just last night I had 3 dreams in sequence. I had a dream scenario of a person I know talking to me about going to visit a psychiatrist. So I told this person that psychiatry is a bullshit profession and that we should kill them all. And then this person said something completely out of place, something not from my conscious. I do not remember what they said but it has been deleted from my memory. There is another dream, but that was wiped from my memory, I remember however that in this dream that I was forcefully portrayed to act in a specific way that looks bad for onlookers. The final dream was a blacked out image of a man with a white question mark on their body dancing in celebration Then the dream finished. When I asked myself who that was, an external sound of a gunshot played. This was a threat. Help me lainchan.

>>5546 This is paint image indicating what the floating machines looked like

Also sometimes there is different people talking directly into my head, asking me questions about things I am doing, almost as if making conversation, but I know that these people can read my thoughts at least partially by the types of questions they ask, I know these are different people based on their idiosyncrasies and personalities.

>>5546 might wanna post this on /hum/. i think it fits there better. wish i could help you but i don't really know what to say.

>>5546 I think that's something new. I haven't heard of black blurry spherical objects but I'll assume they are in the same realm as what we call Archons which are in the shape of bilateral symmetry and looks like tall totem machines. BUT the description of it having tiny tethers made me think it may be a ctulhu-like thing which had multiple claims of being seen in the past. Keep in mind these beings do not appear as clear since they are above our perception and our mind would try to fabricate the closest image - they usually appear as dark somewhat-colorful embossed blurry figures and complicated like a machine or like a totem design and we're not used to seeing them so you may have thought of the machine with it's top being open as man-made since it looked like a machine but that's just may be a coincidence. Similarly people might think Archons are man-made totem machines but it's people who made those based off experience. They usually only appear as clear AFTER we woke up since our brain waves are still in deep Delta but fade or phase out after we're fully awake (or so they probably thought we're still asleep). I have seen these appear and fade away after waking up whenever I had really negative dreams or bad nightmares keep in mind I never had nightmares for years ever since I did a Sigil. I guess my advice is find a Sigil of your liking and evoke. Higher dimension problems are solved by higher dimension entities. TL;DR find a tutelary/guardian deity. "angel or demon" they're the same, the latter literally translates as "teacher or guardian", the former is the "ice guardian". >>5548 >Also sometimes there is different people talking directly into my head It's possible that you're instead reading their mind or it goes bothways, no way to find out aside from answering them. Something weirder is having astounding levels of coincidence with reality aka synchronicity. It may feel weird like you're a schizo but it's just what it is and it would usually appear as if reality can read your mind (although don't be afraid of it since reality is your indispensable friend). Although other people can clearly read your mind based on body language or the sounds you make (kinda like how animals understand each other), it's also possible for you to be able to read other's thoughts based on the sounds they made (like the way they hit a metal or a drum or a clap). There's also silent speech interfaces that machines have and my theory is they're placed on Airports too.

>>5546 by just reading trough this it might or might not be related to saturn, its unlike anything i heard before.

>>5551 usually its not this extreme, as its just a feeling of a benign presence that's usually solved with the lesser banishing rite of the pentagram, so i guess i can recommend that.

This isn't likely to get rid of them quickly at this stage, but make a point to stop interacting with them and things should get less severe over time. Universally, these things desire increased interaction with you so they can manifest more, so cut them off. If you see something, break contact with it. Immediately after waking up, keep your eyes closed, shake your head and move your whole body before opening your eyes, so you don't bring them into your waking life from your dreams. If you see something while awake, avoid looking at it or listening to it and leave the immediate area. If you hear thoughts in your head that don't feel like your own, do not respond. Arrest it (prevent it from speaking or manifesting) if you can, but if you can't that's ok, just go away and distract yourself. As far as nightmares go, there are mild medications (Prazosin is the one I take) that help. It may be worth seeing a psychiatrist for access to them, just say you have nightmares from PTSD. You don't have to tell them everything.

>>5553 Great advice, but I'd like to disagree with your take on dealing with nightmares. Like a growing number of Lainons here, I've dealt with a very similar situation concerning an adversarial entity. What OP is describing is exactly what you'd see with dream manipulation. Get rid of the issue, the dreams get better. Also OP should practice lucid dreaming. No matter what the issue is, lucid dreaming is a very beneficial skill to have, but especially for this problem. Also while I'm not so sure how worthwhile it is to add, I'm a bit suspicious that there's any manifestation going on concerning this. Instead these interactions are done to break down spiritual defense and gain more synchronization or control of the body and mind. However, the process of getting rid of such an entity in these circumstances are entirely the same. One last thing to add I would recommend OP learn and perform the lesser banishing ritual twice a day as that seems to work for most people with similar issues.

>>5554 Forgot to add... my opinion on pharmaceuticals is that they are poisons to treat a greater ailment. Issues of the spirit or mind are always in the control of the individual, and being dependent on poisons to treat such issues is a Faustian destruction of individual autonomy that stunts your ability to treat such issues, as well as an agreement to deal with any harmful side affects that may come. If you're going to depend on treatment, a psychiatrist would be better.

>>5554 >>5555 If you can avoid medication, avoid it, but it's a crutch that's available. Sometimes its too severe to cope with on your own. Drugs are just tools. When taking any such psychoactive drug, you should always have a mind towards solving the underlying issue during the time it buys you. I'm not sure it's the best idea for OP to learn lucid dreaming right now, it could backfire and lead to more negative encounters. I'd only recommend it if OP is already capable, otherwise avoiding direct confrontation will be the best choice.

>>5556 Good points and well tempering to my overly strong advice!

This sounds very much technological, if you keep tabs on ufo stuff, you will have heard of these beams being capable of doing enormous things, both good and bad. The tranny part is particluarly disturbing given the fact that this also has been reported often, people being fed transgender ideas against their will. I dont mean that in the usual tranny lover context, in one interview with darrel sims, the alien hunter, he talked about how his son was being manipulated into that and he was aware he was being used, the son told him that his conciousness was being "modified". Trauama is often used as a catalyst for mind control, it makes you do things, they then can force you into a situation, then it snowballs. We know that there is synthetic telepathy and voice to scull technology, but those black thingies, i dont think theyre man made, but who knows, they like to mix technology. Frankly i dont know how to help you, this is a dire situation, the least you can do is amp up on physical security, have everything montired, maybe you can catch some evidence or otherwise lock on on some method you can use.

>>5587 >We know that there is synthetic telepathy and voice to scull technology different anon here, a long while ago i read up on a thing called a neurophone(if i remember the name correctry), it can apperently play sound and music trough just skin contact, the big con is it uses your nerves/nerve endings and everything you hear trough it is taken as a command by your brain, essentialy it can be used as brain washing.

hey man I would highly recommend mentioning this experience to a doctor or therapist or even just a family member

>>5641 Good advice if OP wants to get institutionalized. Don't trust therapists

>>5706 I don't know which way the cause and effect is, but listening for special messages like that is a pretty common early element in stories of people who developed full-blown paranoid schizophrenia.

>>5546 I've never had them myself, but from what I understand hypnopompic hallucinations are a pretty common experience in healthy functioning people. So are intrusive thoughts. So there's a good chance there's nothing to worry about.

>>5707 No its nooooot its magical

read the Gospel of the Essenes and peace be with you

How are you guys assuming it's demons or aliens or ESPers. All of you seem way overconfident. The first step before all this advice would be to find the method behind the attack. Then, knowing the method, you can more properly find the remedy. Given that the original poster believes he is being mentally manipulated, it must first be determined whether or not the things he sees exist in the physical world or not. A good idea is to set up some cameras and ask another person to watch. Then compare what the cameras and other person see to what you see. That way you can determine if the black things exist physically or only mentally. Additionally, with the other person you can figure out if they are affecting only you or perhaps everyone within a certain area. Afterwards, try changing other variables. Maybe they only patrol a certain location, or maybe only at certain times. Who knows.

>>5719 Military or obscure tech, remote neurosurgery robots, and hearing computer generated voices now. I'm sorry.

Come back after you reduce your stress level. Take a walk outside, when it is a nice weather and temp. Best bet would be dawn. You can also go swimming as well. I can't honestly say I believe that you have some random entities spooking you but maybe you can find the answer for yourself once you stop spooking yourself. Invest in some amenities like hot drinks and filling meals, as well as candles/incense, and make sure to get enough physical activity in during the day so that you feel very tired before bed. Then get a new hobby. It can be literally anything. Exhibitionism for all I care. Once you feel you've calmed down a little you can ask yourself again what to do about the mind control robots. Honestly, if you're REALLY getting mindfucked every night by robots there's most likely nothing you can do about it. So there's no use worrying about it! Just relax until you feel better.

>>5546 I would recommend you keep a firearm on you. It is possible the constructs which have been harassing you are sent out be spooks testing the waters with you. I'd recommend you to get a 12 gauge semi automatic shotgun if you can, and to buy penetrating slugs for them. The next time one of those constructs shows up in your room you can put maybe 2-3 slugs into it before it can retaliate and hopefully by then you would have disabled it. Then you would be able to get a good look at the machine and possibly stop the psychological torture if the construct was singular in nature. Hope this helps.

>>5719 agree, first try to ascertain the nature of the threat. If you have 1 hour to solve a problem, spend 59 minutes understanding it, and 1 minute solving it.

>>5719 >>5861 This is awful advice. Ignore it... or sure....lets say you dive into the abyss. These sort of things are sustained by attention. There's no shortage of tricks, and maybe you could become more fortuitous going that route but then you could be inviting a life of dangerous sustained mindfuck. Why investigate the method if the goal is not in your favor?

>>5862 This implies OP isn't in some kind of MK ultra truman show tier test. Reminder that the US DoE did radiation tests on political prisoners and called them schizzo and said their radiation poisoning (seeing flashes of light and machine noises) was all in their heads

>>5863 it wouldn't surprise me. Most of what the schizos were warning us about (mass surveillance, subliminal messages, ads that control your mind, mental slavery in social media apps, jews that control the world, plandemics) were mostly true.

>>5863 Considering the possibilities: tech-based psywar abuse; mental illness or event; spiritual; alien or esoteric entity; magick or spirit-based psywar abuse. And weigh and strike out according to one's diffidence and intuition. The only possibility in which investigation would be more fruitful (or at least, safe) than ignoring is the first. Once the metaphysical senses are compromised, depending on the goal of the entity intruding your sovereign, it may become impossible to familiarize those senses enough to identify or resolve. Best to ignore it indefinitely and know assured that's the best course of action. But if OP is open to finding capable person to help with these issues, by all means take that up... personally that hasn't helped but I did instigate the hell out of my own situation, so yeah, consequences. Just my 2 cents as a Lainon with a malicious spiritual attachment. My own entity is capable of all of what OP described, though not personally experiencing visual hallucinations I've had persistent auditory hallucinations for a couple months when the phenomenon first started. What OP describes out of dream do seem very much a mind's eye thing, though it is strongly implied that it being physical and literal, and I'll admit that didn't I didn't register that on my initial read. So yeah I guess I can't say for certain it is spiritual in nature. Another thing >>5550 it does sound like a dream eater eater entity of sorts, just with a perceptual bias in the same vein of what inevitably happens to some degree during remote viewing. >>5587 personally I think mass spiritual abuse is being coordinated from the shadows of power, so no shock to me that trannies would be a thing. And really, if that is the case the possibilities and methods of attack are endless, and just gotta hope they have no interest in you in particular.