recurring visions when i sleep

i posted in here like 4 years ago when this first started and i wouldnt come back but i dont know where else to go every other night i see a girl from my young teenage years in my sleep. i am 19 now. i miss her dearly, we are not in touch anymore as we hurt each other many times, and i have felt that i moved past our relationship in a conscious way years back, i've since seen other people, etc..... we havent spoken for a couple years, and last year her mum died, since then the dreams have just been coming back en masse. i sent her my condolences but aside from that we have had no other contact. i'm sure she doesnt feel the same way about me as my subconscious does about her, but i need to move on for the sake of my mental state. every time i think about what could have been if i was different or if she was different or whatever i just fall into a state of insane depression, compounded by the fact that i know no one from that life is interested in me or what i'm doing or how i am anymore. i watch her spending time with people i used to know all over social media while i struggle to find my footing from group to group, with friends that feel as temporary as can be, and while i am ok with my life and dont really struggle with depression in the ways i used to, every time i see her in my sleep (which has been more and more recently, practically every other night) i wake up feeling like i've been gut punched. talking to her isnt an option. how do i move on. thanks lainons. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRHU_pjK7x8&ab_channel=CasinoVersusJapan-Topic

i havent had these dreams , but i know those thoughts , your brain makes you think aboiut what couldve been but you know its a lie. honestly i think you should ask her for coffee , hang out and maybe later on (if it goes well)tell her about the dreams. otherwise your gonna hit the deep end hard and do something stupid good luck to you lainon

>>3988 I just cope with the endlessly recurring dreams. I don't dream about my past life, so much as what I wish my life would be. If this is truly so bothersome, just meet her again like the other poster recommends, and one way or the other, these dreams will likely be vanquished by the fallout. >if i was different >or if she was different Both of those was should be a were, because this is the subjunctive voice.

I've been having pretty much the same thing. I don't know how to help, but I can at least say you aren't alone