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Sometimes, while I'm thinking, I remember something I believed happened or remember some idea -- either of these things fully integrated in unconscious self -- and come to realize either the memory is impossible or the idea is impossible. An example being thinking of a real song as if I made it, with an elaborate context behind it, only to realize that elaborate context, when queried, has no information. Then there's the problems of my earliest memories: I have no clue if some of them are real. My mind makes new memories to understand old ones, often with the influences of dreaming. An example being I remember Elementary School as a dark night on our soccer field with the street lights on as we move around and play, sleep, talk, all at once. There's no logical reason for this, but in my mind, and perhaps due to hidden dreams, it makes complete sense for me to imagine this time as such. Due to this my earliest memories are, invariably, influenced by mind mind and dreams of when they were created. I think everybody has all of what I've said to some extent, which is part of why I'm posting, but I more wonder if anyone has anything much similar to the first thing as well as the 'new memories' bit. I wonder this because these dreams and understandings of reality have moved me greatly at times, to a point where I take fiction seriously due to it's power to enter my unconsciousness via alterations to mind or influence in dreams. I think this has influenced how I've often found abyss's, that being art or things inherently unknowable or unthinkable, nice to my mind, calming even. I'd like to hear your experiences with the unconsciousness, dreams', and mind's, interactions.

not sure understanding what is an unconscious self and how eides getting integrated it? sometimes dream up song or film seens---preemo stuff---but I dig for aothur and cant find or a real stupid describing my friend the seens why likes it then hasnt it the seens.

>>3520 Unconsciousness in my context is specifically things I can't look for, only happen across. They still affect me, but I don't realize it with my rational questioning conscious mind. As an example I'll be walking down the street and, let's say, think "Remember when I killed that --" only for that memory, coming from the unconscious and affecting how I've acted, to be scrutinized by the thinking mind, realizing that no, I have not killed anyone, and no, I could not have killed someone with a giant magnum. It's ridiculous absurdity, these dreams and memories sometimes, but my self, entire, cannot know that until it passes into my thinking conscious mind, ready to think and analyze. And how do you find a book if you cannot remember anything about it? You don't, until you, while reading something, come across familiar text or title and suddenly realize it is finally that book at last! Same is it for my memories and dreams, it can take actual months, maybe years (usually pretty vague memories/concepts at that point, where I can barely tell if I really thought it or not) for me to realize something is not reality. I think I only need to think about the memory/information once to understand it's not real.