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I always fail to know why sometimes other people bother me so much. It's made me hate going out & sleep ten hours or more a day. I cant cope with humanity always changing around us u know that I'm doing my best. Most of this resembles typical anti social behavior but, its literally not even me. I can F e e l These people and it makes me entirely way too self conscious. I recently just moved states also :( everything contributed to stress has already shortened my life by 10 years I'd gucoess. My waking conscious is mainly coexisting and avoiding the landmine any social encounter may be its ruined my life.

Don't fit into the culture? A large enough contrast between yourself and society to assess an issue? You may be de facto autistic. Don't worry though, antisocial means being harmful and hostile to others, that's what the current tolerated culture often is, possibly not what you are. You are likely just asocial, and de facto autistic.

What does that even mean, as far as I know autism isnt even fully understood. How could I be? Not that it isnt a possibility.

>I can > F e e l >These people and it makes me entirely way too self conscious. woah, relateable. I'm pretty sure it's some kind of schizo thing, like believing you can read minds but less intense(usually). I do my best to think logically, treat it as intuition that must be verified with other data. Just try not to make weird faces at people.

experiences shape us this is not schizo

>>3498 You probably don't like yourself for whatever reason (anxious, insecure) and are projecting it onto other people.

>>3505 this is normal person talk I am angry other people weird

>>3503 I could tell you any number of ways I've tried to be logical about everything. Its lost its edge due to hard evidence and experiences I otherwise dont want to remember. People are fuarrrking irritating, it's almost as if because I'm operating on a higher frequency & I am. I have mpd. Usually my head is tossed salad. It brings their attention on me, I hate it.

>>3507 same but dissociative with ASD

>>3498 develop your own abilities and strength first, these will help you deal with the outside.

It just simply means you're surrounded with people who are incompatible with you that you're bothered with their actions. The only valuable social interaction is one you would benefit with or each other, an equal exchange. If it's not like that, it means those people are just total hipsters.

Relateable i suppose, i have grown so apart from almost anything resembling mainstream that i might well be an alien and they might be aliens too me. I used to have terrible anxiety too, eventually when i realized just how shallow and stupid most people are it just turned to apathy. Lucky for me i can afford to live like an outcast, if i had to be socially active i would no doubt kill myself, not just out of fear but out of choice.

>>3498 Honestly, I gotta agree with >>3505 OP. I went through something similar a few years back. A combination of low self-esteem, social anxiety, and intense empathy for others made it feel like I was always being watched/judged. I came close to becoming a social dissident but luckily I had some longtime friends that brought me out of it. Now I manage to have normal person friends that I hangout with on weekends while simultaneously being an introverted lainon. Just remember anon; as easy as it is to say they don't matter, real-world connections ARE important. You don't need to be a social butterfly, just never totally shut yourself off.

I feel like that I sometimes just can't handle the pressure that social life puts on me. It feels like that everyone has these incredibly high standards and I'm never able to meet them. I'm not even antisocial, I just wish that people would appreciate me for who I am. I don't know if I'm really that different from other people or if it's just all in my head, but it's making me gloomy and hate myself.

>>3513 Wholly agree with that image, says it all in a nice concise way