Remembering my dreams as if they are reality

Schizo here, and lately I have been remembering my dreams as reality. Usually they were bizarre enough to where I could figure out that it probably wasn't real, but my dreams have been more abstract than bizarre lately, happening in the real world with real concepts. Had a dream that I completed a project for college and submitted it, only to find out that that never happened. I had a dream that this girl I have had feelings for said that she felt the same, then made a complete fool of myself in front of her IRL. I keep losing things because I placed it somewhere in my dreams and it like "overwrites" the memory of where I actually put it. It's not all bad, the other day I had a dream where I smoked all my CBD and got depressed, but today found out it was all a dream when I re-stocked my stash. >how do you not wake up, remember your dream, and then realize it did not happen. I do not remember my dreams anymore, apparently pretty common for schizos. However you do dream every night. So I am having these dreams, waking up without the memory of the dream, and somehow recalling memories of certain parts when thinking about something related to the memory. For instance >trying to remember if I started on my college project >remembered that I finished it and turned it in, thanks to the dream >thinking about this beautiful programmer waifu, as always >remembering she professed her feelings for me, thanks to the dream >looking for my notebook for artsy soykaf >I put it in my bedside table, for dream analysis if I ever remember them again >but I remembered vividly that I left it in my car, couldn't find it, thanks to the dream >only figured out it was from my dreams when I put my pack of smokes in the bedside table and found it there >how are you able to type this at all in a way that makes sense? you are right, most schizos would be rambling with poorly structured sentences filled with out of place words. this was pretty traumatic for me when I had my break, because I have been a writer since I was very young (I just write soykaf for myself/friends, not trying to be the next Lovecraft here), and I was not able to write anymore. It only made sense to me and I couldn't share it anymore. so I found another schizo writer's blog and reached out to her, and she helped me over a long period of time to develop my former mode of speech. every now and then I still get a comment from someone to the effect of "English please?" or "wtf are you talking about here?" but for the most part I can type normally. improvised verbal speech is another story. Anyways, has this ever happened to anyone else and any advice for me?

>>1995 >and somehow recalling memories of certain parts when thinking about something related to the memory is this first stages of schizo? I have had this for quite some time now and I am worried

>>1997 no the first is confusion, paranoia, and endless nightmares. I remember when I first broke I only had these bizarre, tortuous nightmares, and this has been going on for years. I kept thinking that people were in my house, I "cleared" my house with my pistol about four times a day. I also kept forgetting things almost every day. don't worry anon, this is very common in high fantasy, high creativity, high intelligence, or high introversion individuals. you may just be quirky. I suggest you look up the personality disorders on the schizophrenic personality spectrum >schizoid PD >schizotypal PD >paranoid PD and see what comes of it. also, are you older than 23? because the cut-off age for adult-onset schizophrenia is 23 and symptoms begin to set in 18/19 at the earliest

>>1998 But there's a thing called late onset schizophrenia which has a much older cutoff. Don't use the internet to diagnose people's problems.

>>1998 >also, are you older than 23? because the cut-off age for adult-onset schizophrenia is 23 and symptoms begin to set in 18/19 at the earliest this isn't really true... a lot of people have the disease but don't have a psychotic break(which would generally be what signals others that there's something wrong) until much later. One key aspect of schizophrenia is that it's very hard to tell that you have it, because to you the delusions feel real.

>>2000 >don't use the internet to diagnose people's problems didn't diagnose anything, he asked a specific question, I gave a specific answer/question. I re-directed him to research three disorders where, if the disorders seemed like a fit, any site would recommend he seeks the attention of a psychiatrist/diagnostician. by the way, I get none of my knowledge off the internet. also there's this thing called guessing, and I found it to be a safe bet our anon was not fuarrrking 50/60 lmao. get off my thread, Napoleon. >>2001 >this isn't really true I was going off of what the DSM V says, but to avoid the risk of arrogance I will go back and check again. >a lot of people have the disease but don't have a psychotic break this is outdated knowledge unless by disease you mean one of the schizophrenic personality disorders. schizophrenia has been re-defined to be the aforementioned psychotic break of a schizophrenic personality. if you learned this from some website, a lot of those sites have not been updated. some still call DID Multiple Personality Disorder. >it's very hard to tell that you have it yes, but he will still be able to recognize certain symptoms that are not clouded by his disorder, plus I personally doubt he has schizophrenia because of the way he types. he is too eloquent for being a new schizo. it just looks like he's an imaginative individual, which is why I referred him to what I know. while I am only an amateur, I have made amateur recommendations of diagnoses that led to an actual diagnosis of the same disorder from a therapist, including my own before I was diagnosed with schizoid PD. props of being a fuarrrking crazy person since you were little, you like to learn about this stuff.

>>2001 The other thing is, you could have all the symptoms your whole life but if you never tell anyone and are somehow able to get by, you're not going to get diagnosed at all. >>2002 > get off my thread, Napoleon. I don't know what this means.

>>1998 >I kept thinking that people were in my house, I "cleared" my house with my pistol about four times a day. Maybe not 4 times a day but every day for sure, and have been doing so for past couple of years. >also, are you older than 23? because the cut-off age for adult-onset schizophrenia is 23 and symptoms begin to set in 18/19 at the earliest I have had a lot of hallucinations and false memories from the past and remember my first to be from 11 when I hallucinated paparazzi being around me snapping pics when I was peeing in bathroom or when I was 15 I had a lot of dejavus and hallucinations like old grandma plowing the floor boards of my house with a hoe and smiling at me, or open doors when they were closed or dark silhouettes watching me from a far or in the corner of my eye. I am 23 now but it has been really hard lately due to stress which has accelerated my poor memory and delusions into combining this feeling of dream world like state of hazy mind where I do things IRL and don't know if I did them or didn't do them and rechecking myself for 10 times in case I forgot or didn't do them. Due to hazy mind I have been doing everything on instinct and feels like I am not me anymore.

>>2004 btw there was absurd level of dejavus in my late teen ages and delusions of grandeur that I was a military experiment in which they wanted to test their psychology games and that they cultivated me in military base nearby because I felt like everything around me (especially socially) was orchestrated to evoke a certain emotional and psychological stimuli, to motivate me to certain way of thinking. I felt like I was being controlled from every angle and I used to do weird "Truman show"-esque stunts where I would test my surroundings to see if they were "in on it". Seems like all those were just memory lapses and delusions of grandeur though, I calmed down a lot lately.

>>2003 you actually seem nicer than I expected. I made a rash judgement based on the fact that you immediately went to conflict rather than considering the scope of what I was talking about. So I assumed you were one of those people who strive to find conflict online, most of which have a Napoleon Complex. my bad, I notice that I can be sensitive when my knowledge of psychology is put into question

>and she helped me over a long period of time to develop my former mode of speech I would be interested in knowing some details on what that entailed if you care to.

This sometimes happens to me but it never got to be a problem because I was able to check before problems arise. I suggest you keep a journal so you can always check if something actually happened. If it is missing from the journal even if you thought you wrote it down it's possible it didn't happen. It may also be good to underline everything you suspect was a hallucination or delusion and double underline what you confirm to be a hallucination or delusion. Keep this written as instructions in front so if someone reads it they know how to interpret it and helps you remember too. As for your problem with losing things you need to give desognated spots for everything important. Only place the objects in one of their designated spots. Make sure the spots are in every room you likely will take them to. This means even if you don't remember you have much less locations to search through till you find it. Are you medicated and with what?

I had something like this just the other day but writing it out provided a solid reality check. My Nan passed away during the middle of last year but in my dream I was in the car with my Mother who kept on talking about her future treatments and her current progress. It was an absolute mind warp and for a period of roughly an hour or two I was set in thinking she was still here. Again, picking the off nature of it all was down to associating the scenery of the trip down country roads late at night for the funeral.

>>1995 I had periods where i would not be sure if something was a dream or not/a memory or not. These would usually happen if my sleep schedule was random or if i frequently switched between working night/day.