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i keep seeing the same girl, I met her when I was 13. she used to go to the same school as me, we liked each other but we were too young. for almost 5 years now I've contained my feelings for her. we talk a lot. we kissed once or twice. i don't go to that school anymore, and I see her rarely. she's in my dreams. she can be in any of them, appearing in the background of one and into the next. there's one recurring dream where we're in my old french class, and she's playing with my hair. im pretty happy there. ive had a few girlfriends in my secondary years, and she's been with other people too, but i feel like i love her. recently we don't talk so much. makes me kinda sad. hope you guys have been sleeping well because I haven't. i stay up late every night listening to music and ignoring all responsibility. it's getting pretty bad. night guys, sleep well.

I've been sleeping better, thank you. My nightmares have gone away, for now. I don't know how much this means to you Anon but I hope things get better for you. I got one of those rubber wristbands awhile ago. It says "It's okay to not be okay. Have hope". So I just want to tell you that it's okay that things aren't going well for you right now, and that there's always the hope of something better come the next sunrise.

I really like that picture its very atmospheric

imagine it, anon, what if she's dreaming of you ? go find her and ask her out. perhaps the dreams mean something, satisfy them.

>>544 Added it to my collection of wallpapers. That picture is the embodiment of everything I love about walking around, alone, in a big city, on a gloomy day. You should talk to her OP.

>>539 Listen mate. Call her, write to her, send her a message contact her any way you can. If she means so much to you, you HAVE to call her. Don't have to open up your soul in that call. Arrange a date, do anything. Just see her. If you do any of this, you still won't be able to sleep, but that will be because of euphoria destroying your insides. Which is a good thing I guess.... One day you won;t have the things you take for granted

>>547 >tfw live in a small town in an ugly area

>>582 so it's OP here, uh, update I guess. we talked a few days after this post but it was a really uncomfortable chat. I sorta haven't spoken to her since. it's not so bad, it's a busy time for both of us now so I guess it's okay. ill talk to her again soon and let you guys know.

>>594 beats not talking to her at all

>>595 yea it does op back again, we had a small chat today and it was ok, i think we're gonna go our seperate ways for a while but she did admit theres something there so i guess we'll just have to wait it out. she said she'll make up her mind by the end of the year, which is fine to be honest. thanks for this thread, made me feel a lot better. cya guys, op signing off.

>>611 Happy for you. There was someone I felt similarly about, not in a romantic way, but more in a deeper sense of friendship. Like you, I met them when I was younger, and they were my friend for four years. For certain reasons, I had to leave where from we knew each other and I didn't leave any way for them to contact me. I've regretted it ever since. With people you meet at such impressionable ages, it becomes really hard to separate, and they can haunt your consciousness for years after the fact. Don't let them go.

bump, im the type to notice this is the only board not deleted more than twice

>>611 > did admit theres something there so i guess we'll just have to wait it out. she said she'll make up her mind by the end of the year, which is fine to be honest. Doesn't sound fine to me. At this stage in my life, I wouldn't tolerate a woman who refuses to be forthcoming. I could only think of bad reasons why she would keep you hanging like this, mainly that she want's to keep her current low-responsibility ride going, and is not in her heart keen on truly being with you. Wait... shoot this was from 2017??? Huh. So how've you been the last eight years?

>>539 this from 2017 lol do you got any updates

that very specific person might not be the meaning, but it could be that your undercurrent "subconscious" is using her as a symbol for importance; that this here is something that the soul has some meaning for. it doesn't mean that it needs be exactly Her, but she represents something that has significance. maybe you are telling yourself these things dont matter, maybe you are telling yourself life is busy with all other things of other significances. maybe what She is or what She is supposed to signify, is, true, isnt signicant or just of equal significance with other things in life, but the fact remains that she is of SOME significance, that even when life goes on smoothly, the minds seems to think "this one is something that i shouldn't forget anyway because there's no reason at all to forget."