How do you deal with being ugly? The genes that I've inherited are undesirable genes, they make you ugly. It's the reason why I spend all my time on the computer. My ugliness makes me nervous when I meet other people besides my family. So, it has the unfortunate effect of making me look like a weak human. Humans like strong, positive, happy go lucky humans.
All my troubles stems from my ugliness. The reason I isolated myself in my bedroom, the reason I have no friends, the reason I am failure in basically everything I have attempted doing is because I have a very low self esteem that comes from my ugliness. I've fallen so far down the hole that it has become very difficult for me to climb back up. As I get older it'll only get worse.
I honestly don't know what to do anymore about that. I'm just programming in the hopes of making some money so that I can live comfortably alone. That is my only goal in life and if I fail at that then I have reached the bottom.