Vent thread

Vent thread OP is lonely and gay

No that's not me in the picture, obviously I'm not cute or anything I'm just deeply lonely and might just die alone KHV What is a loveless life worth living for? Guess i'll whine a little and go back to being a stoic since it's fully useless to cry as a man But maybe one day i'll have my cool loving hunk boy/husband Still can't decide if i want a femboy/twink though... i want to feel safe and protected in someone's arms (daddy issues?)

A life is worth livin cause you're your own person, I won't guess what u got goin on, but I wouldn't bet on it either Nothins also worth dyin for, ya could be 35, but ya still got upwards to 103 to live, just nobody gets that far with a stale mentality

>>49898 Yeah but it hurts, i don't want to hurt

sorry lain. do you have family?

Meanwhile I am a 30khhv who have just realised a proper root of my misfortunes: my parents would push 2 conflicting worldviews on me without regarding who I really want to be. So I bakame a warehouse no-one. The way my mommy lived was not too good albeit liveable. The problem is, my sometimes-swinging-in father refused to support me in terms of education, pocket money or tools. Instead, he would focus on metropolitan-styled clothes, fancy sweets and businessmen biographies/pop-sci books/pop-sci mags - something i would have easily lived without, given how large the clothes bin of the local church was. Also, a tech gift that was awfully flashy too, unfit for serious work (overheats to death if used seriously). Oh and if I said a word about daddy's gifts, he would be unpleasantly mad. As result, i looked so tacky and flashy for the locals I was easily the OPpic of my era.

>>49897 Don't confuse what you want with what you really want. These are all just desires. Being fulfilled doesn't happen by wanting or even getting, but by contentment. "The glutton is never satisfied with food, and the greedy is never satisfied with money." We think getting what we want will make us happy, but it's a trap lainon. The solution is loving your mom/siblings/friends/whoever you have, not sex or even romance, no matter how fun it might be. That's why people have more than one partner in their life: if getting what they wanted made them happy, they'd only have one partner

Not a big thing I want to whinge about, just something I've thought about for a couple of years. I was a loser in high school, was into anime for a while but eventually stopped because I was disappointed by a lot of anime, I found manga and visual novels had more interesting things going on. At this time anime was something only losers were interested in. Today it feels like everyone my age is some anime fan or at the very least thinks it's not necessarily for losers. Often people want to know have you watched one piece? do you like dragon ball? what is your favourite anime? Nothing about anime changed, so what the hell guys? Similar thing with artificial intelligence. I though machine learning was super cool when I was a teen and learned a bit about it, nobody else cared much. Nowdays nobody will shut up about AI (read: public LLM products) and I have to talk with these people who for all their obsession, seemingly know less about AI than I did when I was 15. Both of these annoy me in kind of different ways. The first one because my loser status really kept me down and now the whole reasoning for that is nullified, and the latter is like a mosquito that won't go away. There is a good takeaway from all this though. The masses are fickle, and have no real judgment values when it comes to anything, therefore we should never let mass opinion influence how we feel about our own interests. Like with speedrunning, though I don't really get it I know a majority of people still would judge this as the pursuit of stinky fat basement rats, but that judgment is totally shallow. It comes from this weak idea of what is a "worthwhile" pursuit that falls because at bottom, there is very little that is objectively worthwhile in this world. Speedrunning is an infinitely more impressive pursuit than being a television slob, which has been arbitrarily chosen as acceptable behavior because it's convenient for people to feel justified in being television slobs.

>Go to visit my friend who is spending three months in Ukraine >He says he gets 5 matches a day on a telegram dating bot >Add it on telegram >Day 1 - 0 matches >Day 2 - 0 matches >Day 3 - 0 matches It hurts my ego a lot. I asked out 150 girls in the USA and they have all said no. But I guess I found out even being in a foreign country could never get me a gf. I feel sodapressed.jpeg

>>49923 Dating apps is a gold digger place, just make yourself look rich. Make sure to go through status items checklist. > spending three months in Ukraine Not the best place to spend time to be honest. > ukrainian women Shit taste btw. t ukrainian who didn't leave appartment for 3 years because of conscription hopefully one day I get the fuarrrk out and never come back

>>49924 Damn, that is like kicking dead whales down the beach Ukraine bro. What if you just posted on soc toll you found a guy in another country who would gay marry (no homo) you for a greencard? I’ve offered to gay marry (no homo) people for greencard many times.

>>49925 And how would that help? Borders are closed for conscription aged men, it doesn't matter if you're married to someone from another country. The only marriage related trick I know of is marrying disabled women that needs to be taken care of, but it's strictly regulated. Not impossible though, just hard to find someone with that heavy diagnosis and willing to collaborate.

>>49926 >borders are closed for conscription aged men The border is very large, if you go in the right place, you can just walk across, anyway you could earlier in the war and I doubt it has changed. Not that there's no risk, but there's plenty of risk in sticking around.

>>49927 I've been considering that for years. It's problematic for many reasons, including the fact the Europe genuinely wants to deport all conscription aged ukrainian men to war and is currently seeking mechanisms to do so. Poland deports anyone crossing border illegaly from the very start, Romania doesn't but it can change any moment now. Getting to the border is very risky because of all the blockposts, but if I'm to risk going through blockposts I'd rather use this opportunity to get to safer area in countryside that never gets bombed much closer to me than border and try to wait there. This is something I'll very likely have to do sooner or later.

>>49928 I know a guy who went. To be fair this is a several years ago now, so IDK what the current situation is, but he hiked across into Transnistria. Where exactly I don't know. The authorities there didn't care too much so long as he didn't want to stay in their country, and he didn't so there wasn't much trouble. Eventually he got to the 'west' as a refugee but his status is still not especially secure. Still better than being in a trench or a body bag. Good luck lainon.

>>49923 I wanna go to Ukraine. Want to work as a volunteer but not in the trenches. Nothing fuarrrking works though as nobody replies to mails. fuarrrk Telegram >>49929 Meanwhile russhit refugees are working in German factories... sigh

>>49933 There's people who go there wanting to volunteer for all kinds of jobs who get handed a shovel and told to dig more trenches too. Why do you want to go to Ukraine? What are you hoping to get out of the experience? Hopefully not to be a passport bro...

>>49934 Experience, see the world, get out of my NEET prison. Make a positive impact on the world. Refine my skills. Since otherwise im rotting. That, plus, fuarrrk russia.

>>49934 Are you a foid that fears men going to Ukraine to fuarrrk cheap $20 whores who are 11/10 attractiveness? Its a rhetorical question, you are.

>>49936 if only there were a program that would let you go to a country in exchange for work like humanitarian volunteering, or trade school where you just have to work a little as terms of your education that didn't involve going to a literal warzone where there is a non-zero chance of getting schwacked by rocket artillery to get out of your neet prison... Oh well, I guess war is the only answer to your problems... >>49942 There's literally $20 whores everywhere lain, I'm trying to protect him from himself. He seems like the type that would document his journeys or post on reddit and then be the reason his unit gets targeted by a precision strike. If he were serious about joining the war effort, he wouldn't whine about nobody answering him on telegram. Either be about it or don't, but the government has gone into total war mode. Even with a vent thread, the post could have been spared. In fact https://ildu.mil.gov.ua/ if lain would have done a bit of research...

>>49943 Boy you are really fuarrrking retarded you know that? Keep your words to yourself if it's just to project baseless hallucinated crap onto others, you're not a mind reader or whatever you posit yourself to be. You have no idea what you're even talking about as you literally do not have the data to make conclusions like these. Suddenly i post on reddit and want to go to war, the fuarrrk are you even on about...

>>49936 There is no benefit. Ukrainians and Russians have forgotten they are brothers, this is just some hogs at the top fighting.

>>49933 Ukraine nowadays in infinite everyday shellings by russia with ballistic missiles, drones, etc, infinite everyday stories of top official corruption on military/aid/etc + infinite everyday videos/stories of people kidnapped/beaten/killed on the streets by police and conscription officers. Europe only keeps sponsoring this because Ukraine is their meat shield. If I were you I'd stay out of here to be honest.

>>49948 >>49949 Thanks, russians, but i'll always prefer Ukraine over russia simply because they don't invade their neighbors for nothing and they're also on the right side of history, Europe's side. Russia is a much darker soykafhole and everyone east of Germany knows it.

>>49950 > Russia is a much darker soykafhole That doesn't make anything I said in >>49949 untrue. Your stance is basically "I fear russia and believe it's dystopia and thus I will not believe in ukrainian self-genocide for ewropean money because it's a bit inconvenient for my belief system to accept that both can be true". > Is it true that Russia is aggressor and the official justification behind their aggression is BS Yes > Is it true that Maidan was a western psyop Yes > What Zelensky promised to people during his election campaign Peace at all cost > What Zelensky actually does Till the last ukrainian > Is it true that Ukraine has top-rank official corruption scandals basically every weak and they're often related to military money and other critical spendings Yes > Is it true that people get beaten, kidnapped, sometimes tortured and killed by ukrainian police and conscription officers every day Yes > Is it true that Ukraine has manpower problems and couldn't sustain defense without those genocidal methods? Probably. Theoretically it might be possible to reform army to do super advanced fully robotized warfare of future straight from sci-fi, but even US isn't currently at that level, hard to expect something like that from corrupt soykafhole like Ukraine. > Will it help or they all just die and russia will still have dozens of millions of mobilization reserves left for future offensives? I'll leave this one for the reader.

>>49958 >Defending your country is evil >Anything pro-EU is a psyop >There is no hope against russia So in other words you're a kremlin NTR enthusiast. Sure but just admit it Also >basically every weak

>>49959 There is only hope against russia if EU and Nato join the war immediately and send their forces to the frontlines. Otherwise no, not much. > Defending your country is evil It is evil when I would personally choose to surrender and accept consequences because I don't consider it worthy to die for, but I'm still not allowed to have this choice and forced to fight. Let's see what options I would have if there was a choice: > surrender, great chances that you will be asked to get russian passport or leave the country, I would happily pick the second option, even if it's mandatory to get russian passport you will still most likely be able to leave the country > die for corrupt soykafhole joke of "democracy" because russia is "even worse"

You can often hear "EU" called "євросовок" in Ukraine nowadays which means "euro-soviets" btw. People are sick of ewwropeens.

>>49960 >>49961 Sure, but all that fancy talk is just being a kremlin NTR enthusiast (and coward). The type to flee your house and run far away if homeless niggers invaded it. Just say you like NTR next time instead of all the complicated bullshitting.

>>49962 > kremlin NTR enthusiast That's not really correct to say that, because when conscription was voluntary and Zelensky promised it will never become forced because "we're not such country, we're not like Russia" I was in fact rooting for Ukraine. These times ended few years ago. I admit that was very naive of me to believe in "democracy" and all that bullshit promised by Zelensky, EU, etc. Currently I'm not even rooting for Ukraine. It doesn't mean I support Russia though. I simply want war to stop in any way by any means. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCiUXPEQtsg

>>49963 Sure but there is no such thing as "stopping a war" with russia. Peace in russia is just rearmament. Have armistice with them and they'll just be back in 5 to 10 years except stronger. The default state of russia is war (Afghanistan, Chechnya, Georgia, Ukraine). Kind of like USA but with a different mentality "if you lay down, it means i can walk on you with no consequences". But if you don't know panyatya and that putin is a kor v zakonie, you couldn't understand.

>>49964 Well, the best decision for Ukraine in 2014 was to try to become like Belarus instead of going with EU - to be kinda friendly with Russia but not really participating in its war efforts elsewhere. All those years of war and Belarus still didn't have to send their troops to fight us. Moreover, Belarus is very friendly to our refugees, etc. Right now though, it would probably be close to impossible to go that way after all those years of war, and the best outcome for Ukraine is probably "Georgian scenario" similar to current status of things in Georgia, with further re-orientation to east and establishment of trade routes with China to make stability in Ukraine an area of economic interest of China. I'd like to note, I'm not strong in geopolitics and here I'm basically just repeating in simple words ideas that seemed reasonable to me that I've seen discussed online elsewhere countless times.

>>49964 > panyatya and that putin is a kor v zakonie Meanwhile in Ukraine... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZWlab8cgpA

>>49965 Well, i think those talking points are either weak or misguided, and "repeating ideas discussed online" sounds a bit like passing on russian propaganda. I'm not gonna pretend to be an expert either but a nation that invades another for no good reason and sends missiles at civilians deserves nothing but a beatdown (not negociation!) Look, we can always just drop the topic, since it's kind of off-topic.

>>49967 > deserves nothing but a beatdown Sure, but that's not always achievable in practice. Reasonable geopolitics shouldn't operate on "le cosmic justice as I see it", it should optimize variables such as "risks of war", "deaths of people", "wellbeing of people", etc. You talking points are either naive or fanatic, because lives and wellbeing of people are more important than your sense of justice. Moreover, when you look closer at any politics ever, this naive picture of black-and-white crumbles.

>>49968 And it's moronically naive as a neighboring country to expect lasting peace with russia to be possible. Anything else?

>>49969 Kazakhstan, Belarus, etc. Read about Russo-Georgian war some day, how long it lasted and what happened next. Anyway, I respect your mindset, this is precisely a way of thinking that a brave warrior would benefit from. You should consider a career at the frontlines.

>>49970 I have considered it, 75% out of personal gain, in order to become stronger and more capable and to actually put my money where my mouth is in terms of convictions. Thing is, after 6 years of depression, i barely care about anything at all, so i often just can't be assed to. I did want to volunteer but really only as construction aide or something. And if that is a sly undertone i'm spotting, i do have this to say: if you love submission so much, just find yourself a BDSM club. Instead of going for the russians...

>>49964 ok whatever but they could have just shrugged and agree'd to unification. Or perhaps they could have just surrendered the breakaway republics which literally voted to seperate. They also probably could have resisted US/EU/NATO interest and advancement and done fewer things to alienate their own russian population. This war is not in a small part their fault and they had many off ramps which they did not take. Taking any one of them probably would be much better for the average ukrainian man today. >>49950 >everyone east of germany knows it I'm no fan of serbs, but if I've ever met a people that love russia more than the russians do, its them and they are east of germany last I czeched

>>49986 Ok so just full-on russian propaganda talking points, alright.

>>49987 >Anything i don't like is Russian propaganda Average lainon

>>49988 >Russian propaganda does not exist and i am fully immune to it >Also anyone who points out i might be infected with it is just obviously wrong and i don't need to do introspective at all, instead i can just reply with some meme line i pre-learned lazily I give you 102 IQ

>>49991 >Continues to shoehorn in justification to not demonstrate critical reasoning as to why they're right. >Clearly offended by meme response to low iq post I give you a sub-20 iq. Absolute retard.

>>49993 So i clearly hit a bullseye. If you're too retarded to know about Aktivnye Meropriyatsiya then flailing about calling others retards has no effect whatsoever. You need to go back to class or open some sort of book on demoralization and maybe consider the revolutionary thought that russia conducts information warfare online in order to convince retards like you to soften their stances on it. Either way insulting me does nothing, you're only showing your inadequacy on the subject.

>>49995 >The rat screams "I'm not owned, I'm not owned, You're retarded!" as it shrinks into a miniture corn cob Sad little Eurotard

>>49996 Funny of you to talk about "being owned" when you're owned by russian IRA active measures. You've been projecting the whole way through, even suggesting i got offended over your antics, when you're the one who started to spaz out about this. What are you even trying to achieve here? Just suck off russia's penis? Where are you going with it all? Don't you realize that you're just being the kremlin's useful idiot? In any case, you don't have to worry about me. You keep calling me sad and all, but i want to make it very clear: you are not very important to me, lainon. Therefore your talking points don't matter to me, because you are nobody i care about. You're not gonna move me much. I'm not really that invested into this at all. I just think you're mildly fun to play with.

>>49999 Awwww The Scary Russians! Ohhhh they going to come get you! So SCARY!

>>49999 fr though, the cold war has been over for almost 40 years. time to get over it.

Maybe i should remake the thread, since it got shat up by politics. Is there another solution? This is meant to be a vent thread, let me remind you >>50003 An insanely ignorant argument. >>50002 Ergo "empty response"

>>50004 Yes, keep making threads. Good rat. Beware the rusophobes!!

>>49988 based applelarp >>49991 ncd users glow brighter than the fuarrrking sun man. and then I get called a redditor lmfao. imagine coming to the 'we are all connected' board and arguing with strangers that their brainworms are more incorrect than yours. russia is an oligarch run soykafhole, sure, but if you can't acknowledge that euromaidan much like every other failed revolution in the 21st century was a direct consequence of social media information warfare, or that there are real material reasons why this war is being fought or that putin was ever popular in russia in the first place then you have forfeited your right to accuse anyone of not doing enough introspection. my friend was stuck in ukraine for a year because of this retarded war. put a HIMARS up your ass and die planefucker.

>>50007 If i say fuarrrk russia and little worms like you come out of the woodwork then it's immediately very clear who it is we're actually dealing with here.

>>50007 They really are sad. Scary Putin!

>>50008 Hold on, my Russian check just arrived

>>50007 Larp? ok! Flood detection this

>>50008 yeah bro the weather in peter is great today

>>50013 brother, the sun always shines on Russia

>>50004 Still waiting patiently

>>49987 Im not saying the russians didn't also have plenty of opportunity to quit, of course they did. NATO block also had opportunity quite possibly to quit or deescalate. It takes at least two to make a war.

>>50050 What are you talking about?

>>50050 Retarded take. Israel is the only country who can claim that. >>50051 ¿Ques pas mois tucows?

I used to be a failed gamedev. I wasted 5 or more years trying to making it through gamedev. All games I made were bad or I dropped early due to the scope being to big for me. 2 months ago I got a job. The payment is bad, but any other job that I could get would be even worse in that regards. Everyday I think about quitting the job and start doing deliveries on bicycle, but I couldnt even save money to buy the bike since I was 6 years with no money so I had to spend most of the money on clothes and sneaker. Next week I'll be able to buy a cheap brand new bicycle but I'm scared of this plan going bad since there is no plan B anymore. There is nothing I miss more than making my games. Even tho they were bad and earned me no money at all. I don't dev since February, after a big failure and getting to depressed to do anything. Now I pretend I don't have time anymore since I have only 4 hours of "free time" a day, but even when I get home early I just do nothing of value, even on weekends that I dont work. I don't even do calisthenics anymore. To be honest I don't do anything at all besides scrolling 4chan, youtube and masturbating. I don't game anymore, I don't drink, I don't use drugs, I don't go out with my friends, I don't read, I don't eat fancy stuff, I don't pay subscriptions, I dont even have home internet, I don't even fuarrrking remember my dreams anymore, I really do nothing. I'm so sick of this life style but it's the best way to earn money that I have currently. I want to keep working for a bit and saving the money but there are days that I just want to quit. My plan, since the end of the last month, is to work until the next payment and abandon the job to do deliveries and gamedev on my free time but I'm scared as hell from doing the wrong choice again. The job, by itself isnt bad. Actually I'm fuarrrking loving. I work as a field service technician, replacing Dell laptop parts on customer's houses/companies. The problem is that you are supposed to be doing this job on a car and I "lied" about having one (actually my employer hired me knowing this), so I'm using public transportation. While my coworkers are going home at 2pm, some days I'm still working at 7pm and after that I still have 2 hours commute back home at any moment of the day, rush hours, normal hours, they are all the same. Sure those days are rare, and 70% I get home at around 6pm, sometimes even less, but riding the buses and metro with a bunch of boxes for hours is horribly for my sanity. And I'm all by myself, no food, no car to save me from rain. Only me, my equipment and a bunch of boxes. I'm reaching 29yo and I still live with my foken mom, and there is no escape from this unless I save money for another year.

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>>50064 You should commute by bike. It will probably save you time, and transporting stuff by bike is way easier than in the foken bus. Don't buy a new bike btw, as with most things, it is much better value to buy second hand, even more so if you are willing to buy a stolen bike.

>>50066 2 superfluous posts is worse than 1 glitterboy