yesterday there was some kind of nationwide holiday celebration, I saw people my age out with their friends and have fun I couldn't even escape from witnessing it online I tried ignoring it but I ended up thinking how vastly different my life couldve been if I had friends and I don't blame people for avoiding me because truth be told I'm a big loser (problem stem from within not from this soykafhole's society) life is like kicking dead whales down the beach for people like me, I worked on myself and got in shape years ago and I think it's too late thats why I decided to just give up, quit my part time job and rot in my room all day, though I feel comfortable in my solitude most of the time, it's days like these that reminds me just how soykafty my life is.
if you somehow relate how do you deal with these thoughts and feelings? I know it's only temporary but it leaves me bitter every time.