Halp on belg

Hello friends. I can't write as I want. My hands won't allow it. I'm doomed to be brief. I'm sorry. I have survived war, rape, cancer, and cancer treatment that was not according to protocol everything at once lol. I avoided addiction to three prescription drug dependencies (the most decent and normal: benzodiazepines). The sleeping tranquilizer gave me no sleep, only hallucinations. I have been sleeping an average of 3.5 hours for the past 5 months (which is a relief), my whole body is numb, and I can't get out of bed even though my arms and legs are bursting with energy. More than half of my benefits have been taken away in this new country, I am beaten, humiliated, and people break into my room. I have nowhere to go. I have no health, friends, money, or sleep. Sleep is the most valuable thing, and its characters will never return along with my nighttime friends. I just dreamed of it. I have said goodbye to all my childhood dreams. I was a sensitive child, shy, cheerful, and kind. At 3 years old, I could add three-digit numbers in columns, I knew our alphabet and spelling like a third grader before school, and by 5, I imagined myself as a girl, wearing dresses and building breasts out of Lego, receiving insults in return. I was an internet legend with mentions on Wiki, with a website and recognition at 16 (mpot is idiot compared to me). I dreamed of making the world a better place and sharing happiness! But I can't. Life has paralyzed me. I pray to God to take me to Him soon or to send someone who can do something great in my worthless life. Thank you. This is a SOS signal from a 22-year-old anonymous person in Belgium. Please halp. I believe I can be hugged. I will repay you in any way I can. I have valuable information and an internet archive. I hate this text. Sorry, I cannot write.

>>43082 >I have survived war, rape, cancer, and cancer treatment Great job, congratulations! What's next, survivor, going to start hustling your way to the top? Take your time to recover, but not so much it weakens you. I'm not anywhere near Belgium to give you a hug, but good luck finding a hug-mate. I stood in a public place with a "free hugs" a few times, with a very fake smile on my face. People are surprisingly eager to give you hugs, have small talk and take selfies. They thought I had some hug-energy to share, and approached me to "recharge", but at that time I had none of it, and we created this little happiness out of nothing.

I know most lains have no easy life, but that is pretty brutal even for the usual conditions. Im really sorry to hear that you are in such a terrible place, but miracles can happen, they usualy dont, but sometimes do. All i can do is wish you strenght and hope and maybe some easing of the pain.

I can send you hugs as you requested, but they will cost 10 USD each. No, wait, that was such a sad, sad story... only 5 USD each.

Thank you, you cheerful and kind people! I believe that to be a good person, it is enough to be conscientious and treat others as you would like to be treated. To compare yourself with others, you need to be intelligent and sensitive. Alas! Some people lack both. It’s frustrating and sad that they often resist when you want to help them. I believe that people have a conscience that they suppress in public. The desire for happiness and comfort makes them lie to others about their thoughts, actions, and personalities. They have secrets not because these secrets are too bright for the world, but because they are dark, and no one will give them money if the truth is known. It is impossible to deceive oneself, but it is easy to deceive others. Many people place the culture of foolishness above the life of another. You can ask them to hug, to say a kind word before sleep that one can think about with closed eyes, to sleep together when things are really bad. It is so sad to hear that all these requests are considered abnormal, that I am an inadequate madman, that at my age people are more serious and "you are 22 years old, I will not sleep with my son, but only with a man, a dream for some time in the future." Every day, terrifying words. And the scariest of all: the statement: nothing happened that you are saying, no one told you that, and you are talking nonsense. I love you. I am your closest relative, and I know better than you what you need. When I said "just die with ****" I meant "you will die once in your life". I hit you lightly; everyone would act the same way in my place. Don’t tell anyone; they will misunderstand. You just drove me to it, and you are not the only one with your problems; you are selfish. In general, this is a past life. I have learned many good things, and the whole world is my friend! I forgive everyone and ask for forgiveness from those I considered my enemies. I am becoming better and happier! I am learning not to make cruel jokes. I am all for joy and no longer afraid of people. I believe that if a person is angry and resents the whole world because everyone around adores them and they are a martyr who doesn’t communicate with anyone, it means they have a lot of strength and energy; they are happy because they can exist even without the slightest communication. They simulate suffering to get something. In general, thank you, guys! Have a nice day. I will targetly reply your replies today!

>>43083 >>43084 Thank you, thank you! >>43085 Lul. You are a kindhearted troll! It is so fun. If you give me discount for a hug, I will give you discount for... something else! I dunno exactly for what

>>43082 >Hello friends. When the first two words out of a stranger's mouth are "Hello friend" you should immediately get a firm grip on your wallet and cover your ass. Only a naive fool would fall for that kind of stupid aob-story crap.

>>43094 I'm not against you, you are nice person, but you seem to be confused. I didn't cite evidence to preserve anonymity. If you think I'm lying, provide arguments, but there are none. Nothing makes you better than me.. But I don't call third party persons as "naive fools". Evidence and truth are of no interest to people who think they know everything. Even if Jesus himself flew with angels down from Sinai mount healing people and killing zombies I dunno, that type of people will find find a hook with an invisible rope on clothes. I apologize for the slight tension in the text. I would like you to trust your mind - not the emotions and traditions of popular imageboards. Be unique! I'm not your enemy. I wasn't offended by you.

>sleep on your right side to reduce nightmares unless you have GERD or something >never abruptly stop any medication unless there is some severe allergic reaction, only wean off of it very slowly >practice mindfulness meditation or at least square breathing to calm yourself down >try white noise or ASMR to fall asleep to >find people you can confide in who are able to handle heavy stuff >get some hobbies to use your time preferably something other than in front of a screen >don't use mainstream social media or if you do be aware of all the tricks the algorithms and people posting things use to grab your attention through manipulation for profit >use aroma therapy like lavender but if you have pets maybe not since some things are toxic to them so keep them away from it

Hello guys. Some weeks I escaped the house and was living in other province. Nice time. My all relatives said they will change theirselves and start to respect me. I returned. Everything worsened. I will go to the police tomorrow or on Monday. My mom started crying when I talk her about it. I am happy she started to feel normal emotions because previously she was laughing at my words while I was shaking and floor rolling with begging to give me some empathy. I hope she will be a nice person when be imprisoned for couple of years. I started to believe in God and I get some far far away friends. Found an Orthodox church. I drink mint tea and dream for a world where I would have no relatives. I am tired to express myself, so would like to share my thoughts and emotions with this small video. That's how I feel now, but usually I am more funny. Love you and every person outdoors. Everyone in this thread is awesome. Have a nice day.

>>43110 Was helpful to read it. Thank you

oh wow its belgium bro back again buckle up bubba life isnt fair you've just got to get things going by yourself and if its vengance you want then its vengeance you get but you've got to GO and GET IT

>>43082 op you are way too young to make your relatives the center of your life. >that at my age people are more serious and >You can ask them to hug, to say a kind word before sleep that one can think about with closed eyes, to sleep together when things are really bad. >"you are 22 years old, I will not sleep with my son. thats true though. i understand cuddles and hugs, but sleeping next to your mom in times of stress sounds like you have some unresolved issues. i dont know what kind, but it does not sound good at all. >they are a martyr who doesn’t communicate with anyone, it means they have a lot of strength and energy; they are happy because they can exist even without the slightest communication. the way i see it, you will never get the love you want from your mom. in 50years and she will still be the same. and if you do not deal with the loss of care, then you still wanting in 50 years to sleep with your mother. to endure pain means nothing. bring clarity about the relationships. who wants what in general, and who wants what from others? what you want in general, you cannot get in specific from your mom. so direct it elsewhere. ultimately you broke yourself for jail(?), so that she shows some empathy? congrats, thats like once in 100 years, next time she cries will be at your wake. was it worth it? yes i believe you can be hugged. i hope you suitable peolple, stay around that orthodox church they are probably the better support system as online or your family.

She lied to me when I get back. On the basis of my frequent panic attacks she tries to involuntarily hospitalize me in asylum. She is making up some stories which were not in the reality. Police came to our home and said me to not call them anymore. They say my mom only can refer to them. They think she is so worrying about me. She had happy smile after everything