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I discovered that I can just lower my expectations, but instead of lowering these on looks, but on mentality etc. I found out 10 years younger gf. She's 19 I'm 29 She's drug addict, with daddy issues, pope (polish) smoking weed tatooed on ass (on of 5 tattooes). She belive in some strange "unprovable" shiet like "numbers have meanings" there is more than verbal way of communication, we can (((talk))) with plants and if we do it naicly they would want to be eaten and help us xD You can do 2 weeks long amphetamine marathon if you eat healthy enough and eat gotu kola, and other adaptogens. It's been 5 fuarrrking months, and I'm both tired as fuarrrk, exhaused etc. and in so fuarrrking deep love of her that it's destroying me. Anyway if I would force myself to even thing of giving up on her I would be one mentally destroyed. She have her positive side. She's warm as fuarrrk. When I was the one riding the is like kicking dead whales down the beach, she kept with me told me >Everything would be alright and we would make it Anyway she's (((close))) to other persons. She call it "platonic love" while not understanding meaning of this sentence. In description of what she do she told me, that it's all ok because she love them "aromanticly" (right use) and she would slept with these girls when they turn 18 (and that it's not affair if it's woman), but she's not feeling any attachment to them, and I shouldn't even be mad, because we would leave city in few months. I told her, that it's not okey for me, but I werent able to leave her because of that. Instead I told her to tell me such things while I'm turned on as fuarrrk, and now she dominates me in bedroom even with use of finger. I "know" that I should run away, or at least treat it as "good fuarrrking in pseudo relationship" and nothing more, but it's only my logical side. What I feel is terribly strong, and I would never leave her. But I'm destroying myself with her problems, last time she told me she'd "go to last party before detox" and detox lasted for 24 hours (and she was proud because she hadn't even smoke cigarettes, and I'm smoking like dragon). What can I do now? Where do I educate myself on taking drug addicts out of addiction they aren't even seeing problems in? Especially from position of person who is went into relationship with them while they already were like that? Don't do that Lains, if you ever tough it's good idea to find girl like that I'd say it would destroy your mental health.

Keep her around (not staying in the same place) as easy pussy till you find something better and stop doing so much drugs lainon you're starting to sound a little wacked out. Don't simp for some chick that wants to ride the cock carousal. Maybe she'll be tolerable after she leaves her child in the microwave or something like that and ends up a milf in NA meetings. Until then all that cutesy stuff you think is quirky or neat will just make you want to an hero if you ever live with her. You don't fix addicts; eventually the pain of loosing and destroying everyone and everything around themselves either becomes so unbearable they stop or they die. You're hurting yourself by pissing into the wind and hurting her by enabling. Don't be captain save a hoe. When you find someone you don't gotta chase around it's so much better and healthier. Young chicks are over rated.