This is just a solitary confession I want to rid of somewhere. I have had numerous decades to see things for how they really are and it took this long. I have draped an ounce of meaningless things over my hollow being in a blurred and fearful resentment of the world and in contribution to the world I have radiated a ton of misery through petty torment, further inflammation of personal illness and damage, I have reacted to mutual adversity in a self-destructive and persecutory manner and a pompous apathetic silence in return for an apology. I now have a little more empathy and understanding of how people become who they are, how they can be broken by things beyond their control, and the rotten pits anyone can find themselves crawling out of for years or decades. I won't act like I'm a clean separate part of it all anymore. I'm sorry for the things I did.