i've hard sort of an epiphany this morning that i wanted to share with you guys. it's gonna be hard to put into words, but i'm gonna try my best anyway
i think that for the first time in my life, i did something not out of pleasure or envy, but for myself, it's like i chose to consciously better my ego instead of acting on instinct i guess ?
it's like instead of working out because i wanted to look better, i decided that i would work out so that me would look better, me in this context refers not to i but to what i think is my ego or my person