Masochism

>The current list of topics not allowed includes the following: pornography This is technically not pornography. I have a problem. This place is deep enough for this. I am a transgender girl. But that is not all. I am a masochist. I do not like soft BDSM. I want my ass to be purple. I want to someone put out cigs on my body. I want to drink master's pee. May come up with a lot of humiliating and sick things. These are just examples, not text porn. Because of thoughts of violence and humiliation of me I lose my balance, I feelings that all my body warm (like MDMA). I literally lose my mind a little, as if something is chock me. I tried a lot of drugs. But this feeling is stronger than any drugs. It is like pure animal instinct. The desire to obey someone, to be humiliated. I don't even like any bdsm, I just wanna be perfect slave. Stop words for pussies. I want to be beaten and humiliated with tears and requests to stop it, but my master should not stop it. I did not even masturbate to these thoughts. I am afraid of these thoughts, but they are so pleasant. What if someone fulfills my dreams? I think it will be incredible euphoria. Maybe it's genetically. My mother was raped and beaten by many men, but she tolerated it. What do you think about this all? If I fulfill my fantasies I will stop to be human. Do it or repress? Sorry for not knowing English well.

I've seen way worse English from native speakers. I think the best thing you can do is to look in to local bdsm communities, the kind that use screening processes to keep true bastards out, and get to know them. These communities are open, accepting and eager to inform and help you however they can, without judging you. If that's not an option, you can still find groups online to help you out I wish I could give you specific links, but some thought out research should get you in contact with people capable of helping you get in touch with these feelings and, hopefully, helping you fulfill whatever it is you need.

Greetings, fellow slave girl! I didn't expect to encounter another lady of such desires here on Lainchan. I'm a trans girl as well as you and therefore I can understand pretty well what you feel about this. Of course, rape fantasies and roleplay and all are arusing and you see them as fascinating and fullfilling. However, your noble desires of submission should't make you lose your humanity this easily. Please take in mind what slavery really entail. You will be someone else's propierty. This means your Master must take care of you an look for your good. Please, never fall into the arms of a malicious Master because you will regret it over time. Let me supose a bit about you. You look quite inexpert in the sexual matter. Have you ever had any sexual experience involving BDSM or plain hard sex? If so you should know it feels really good but it's just temporary. The best kind of Master-slave dicotomy is the one which transpasess the bedroom. This means serving someone 24/7. But you can't really do this if your Master hiddes bad intentions. Your Master must guide you through your life in a way both of you benefit. Repress until you find the correct man to serve and submit to him with your body and soul. I hope you to find this useful, sister.

I'm a straight male with a pretty "normal" sexuality (I like experimenting things as long as my partner consent). However I have some sadistic fantasies like flogging, roping, gagging, choking and pissing on someone, put my partner under control with harsh benevolence. Sometimes my fantasies involve pure "dehumanization" of my slave like keeping it locked in a cage and using it like a peace of meat. Sometimes I meet girls that are ok to experiment things but never as far as I want. No problem, "normal" sexuality is convenient. Some are ok with soft domination roleplay, little flogging... I think I could do "vile" thinks to a cute little submissive trans. Picrel, some of my homemade beating tools.

>>18160 >I've seen way worse English from native speakers. Thank you. Safeword are boring and it will be just a game. I want the humiliation or pain to continue despite my requests to stop this. I am really against serious injury, death, or coprophagia. Blood and bruises are ok and even like it. If my master wants to cut my skin with knife, then I will be glad. If I were not allowed to leave the house or talk with other males, then I would do what I was ordered. I wouldn't call the cops or some soykaf. Moreover, I would like to communicate only with my master and do things only for him. Of course I would not like the master too cruel, but he should not be weak. If the master will be afraid to punish me, then he is weak. But I also want him to hugging and take care of me. Men have a rather hard life. I would like to help the master remove his boredom and sadness. >>18171 >You will be someone else's propierty. I want it. >Have you ever had any sexual experience I had sex with a weak boy. It was more boring than masturbation. >involving BDSM or plain hard sex No. But my face was slapped in regural life. I seem to respect more of those people who are not afraid to hit me. Even without the context of sex, it was better than any boring sex. My friend do drugs and began to behave strangely. He became fearless and bully. He spat in my face, started slapping my ass, and laying his feet with dirty socks on my face. I felt so good. It was nice to see him have fun. But the next day he apologized for it. He said it was a joke. It was much better than sex. I was high then. As if he was touching my soul. As if it was breaking my humanity. It is immoral, but pleasant. >This means serving someone 24/7. Yeah, it would be great. My masochism is not a just fetish or deviation, it is the basis of my personality. In my life, I usually do not refuse anyone. I never assert my rights and only think about others. I was robbed once, I gave everything without special threats. The robber was apparently surprised, I did not resist at all. They asked me and I gave everything to him. I like the bad guys. >>18175 Sadistic guys are the best, I can never love a soft boy.

>>18176 >Men have a rather hard life. I would like to help the master remove his boredom and sadness. This is really nice and I feel the same. That's why I'm searching for a Master as well. >In my life, I usually do not refuse anyone. I never assert my rights and only think about others. I was robbed once, I gave everything without special threats. The robber was apparently surprised, I did not resist at all That's not a good trait even for a slave. A good slave must be prepare to fight for his Master. I would kill and die for my master. Being able to protect your Master is what makes you useful. Also, you shouldn't let anyone to treat you like that except for your Master. Have a bit of dignity and self awerness, please. You're embarrassing our kind. >I like the bad guys Bad guys don't deserve any speacial treatment nor to be praised. A bad person couldn't be a good Master because he would ignore the needs of his slave. Don't put yourself in danger. If you are serious about devoting your life to someone else please consider choosing only a gentle Master. You won't regret it.

>>18188 >>I like the bad guys Bad guys don't deserve any speacial treatment nor to be praised. A bad person couldn't be a good Master because he would ignore the needs of his slave. Don't put yourself in danger. If you are serious about devoting your life to someone else please consider choosing only a gentle Master. You won't regret it. That's why I used the term "harsh benevolence". I'm not a bad guy. I could be hard but always kind. All the girls (and some gays) I met liked that. Even some feminists (introduce some cognitive dissonance in them, making them even more voluntary submissive). A real man is hard but benevolent. Bad guys are generally insecure losers.

>>18202 >A real man is hard but benevolent Totally agree, Sir. It seems you're a man of culture and good manners. I wish I could find someone like you. Maybe one day... Until then I will keep serching. And for my sister the OP: look for a gentleman like >>18202 because only a man like him would make you happy.

>>18158 I mean as long as you're ok with it and your limits aren't passed you can pretty much do as you wish, no one has the right to tell you that you're wrong or make you feel ashamed of your sexuality. I myself am a sadist but I make a distinction into causing pain and damaging, I never make a partner do anything they're not aware of or anything that will cause them trauma or have persistent consequences on them, some are more extreme than others and I never cross some one's limits. Also you should take care of details, such as for example if you're into candle wax, make sure you don't use any candle, some of them have high melting points and could cause severe burns, do your research before trying something new and more importantly although it might sound ambiguous make sure your dom respects you. But overall you're beautiful and unique and if the society you're in doesn't understand you, shake it off your shoulder and do what makes you feel good! Also I'll drop this if you're curious http://www.psychomedia.it/jep/number16/benvenuto1.htm

Of course, we won't do anything at first, because I'd have to convince myself that you're not gonna run to the cops if you change your mind later. I know I wouldn't, and if you're serious, you won't either, but there are all sorts of persons out there. It would take a lot of trust to let someone let me abuse them. That entails actually hanging out for a while first. And before hanging out, we'd have to at least talk. Email me if you're interested. I require encryption.

I am not a sadist or masochist but I wonder how far I would or could go if I had a partner who wanted it.... Im normally mild in both direction, but if you specifically asked for it Id pull some Stanford Prison soykaf to make you happy. But would it just seem insincere like picrel?

>I am a transgender girl. But that is not all. I am a masochist. I do not like soft BDSM. I want my ass to be purple. Why do fetishes always group together? Probably all expressions of some deeper issue.

>>20253 I don't get it. What's the second fetish? Also, fetishes are essentially tastes, especially that are unusual. What you're saying about them being expressions of deeper issues, would be equivalent to saying that liking some food that you don't like or dislike, is an expression of a deeper issue. You're the one who has a deeper issue, buddy: trying to meddle in others' affairs. I don't care what's causing it, but if you can't not do it, get professional help.

How do you know it's what you really want if your experience about it is so limited? There were things I used to think I wanted until I tried them. It happens. Going without a safeword from the start is quite dangerous. You might change your mind, but there's no way out. Hey, I'm a masochist too. And I love going without a safeword, and the general total immersion dominance, but there are certain things that are off limits. Basically it's that I'm free with I'm out of town or in my bedroom, but otherwise, they have total control over everything, including all my bank accounts, except for one that has barely enough to get me out of town safely. I think the thing that turns me on the most is that they can just financially cripple me at any time. I'm getting wet just thinking about it.

>>18158 > The desire to obey someone > I just wanna be perfect slave I can provide that. Are you willing to call me Glorious Leader and join my fight against the Germanic race?

I think this is a bigger problem than most people think it is. Most societies have a lot in place to help people find their footing in a societal sense (school, etc.), but not a lot in personal life. I think a lot of people are meant to have certain 'roles' in relationship. Like submissive people are meant to play a submissive roll, and that is where they find true happiness. But we just have some vague "just marrie someone you love and it will work out" mentality. That works a lot of the time but I think there is some dissatisfaction by people who are meant to play more specific roles.

>>20250 >I am not a sadist or masochist but I wonder how far I would or could go if I had a partner who wanted it.... IME it's very unsatisfying. I used to have a gf who wanted me to choke and scratch and degrade her. She *really* liked it and fuarrrked like a demon when I did that, so I did it, I could never tell when she was liking the pain though, and I only did it because she liked it. So sometimes I crossed the line when I really shouldn't have, and other times I just couldn't pretend. If you're not actually turned on by sadism don't try to do it.

>>20253 >Why do fetishes always group together? Probably all expressions of some deeper issue. It's all one fetish: autogynophilia. At least OP is gay though. Finding a woman who enjoys dominating men is much harder.

>I could never tell when she was liking the pain though Safeword?

>>18202 >Bad guys are generally insecure losers. According to which feminist propagandist?

>my sex ID being relevant This is bad for culture. It is not relevant and you are baiting.

I can answer all of your questions Sage is a small herbacious plant used as an additive for the preparation of food items

>>18158 So you are looking for a Master?

>>29282 Who is looking for a master? My first girlfriend was a transgender girl too and ever since I've been addicted to the feeling of having sex with a male that's degenerate enough to dress up like a female to pleasure me. Last night I dreamt three times about her while having a boner during my sleep. It's really sad that transgender girls are relatively difficult to find, especially when you're sitting inside all day. I don't know if getting into contact with people on an imageboard is encouraged but feel free to hit me up for a talk.

>>29283 When she smokes I force her to put her lips on mine and blow the smoke in my lungs too. We just did it a few minutes ago. Not sure how it's related but I'm high so I don't really care.

>>29282 He wants a mommy but women are sexually repulsed by weak things they have to mother (for obvious evolutionary reasons). >>29283 Oh wait he's just a homosexual in denial. There's no such thing as chicks with dicks, only dudes with boobs.

>>20253 >>22554 Most "trannies" don't actually are naturally autogenophilic though. It's the natural result of magick mana depletion. The constant availabilty of porn and satisfaction of sexual energies takes them there. Not that unusual these days for men to take hormone pills and to post "programming socks" pics, we don't have to talk about the masses of amateur tranny porn that's being produced every day... I don't know when it started, but it's scary. It's really taken off the last few years. I know a few of guys who started doing this soykaf. But there's already been written a lot on this topic. I don't think we have to spin this further.