sup /r/, russian beta overlord here with a longpost.
i have come to you in seek of help and guidance.
so i've been really good friends with "that girl" from my college for half a year now. she frequently comes over, we watch japanese cartoons, smoke weed, sleep while hugging each other, etc.
she is beautiful, wise, understanding and cute. everything that i want basically. i kid you not, this is the first woman i met, that i want to be married with and spend the rest of the life togerther.
but, alas, as in every single thing in this pointless life, there is a catch. when we first started talking to each other, she told me right in my face as follows:
-i'm stating the fact here, so there wouldn't be any further complications. i'm ONLY into girls. are you alright with that?
i died inside momenterally, but was able to recover myself and reply
-yeah, sure, i understand
-oh, thank god, it's a real weight off my shoulders
yeah, i get it, maybe i must've replied otherwise, but i'm borderline retarded, you have to understand.
she IS showing some affection to me, but i might be delusional.
also with st. valentines day closing in, i was planning to do something autistic that might ruin our friendship. we already are planning to go to the cinema on that day, so the trap is set.
i'm alright staying friends with her, because we still have hell of a good time together, i'm just greedy for wanting more of that.
she told me she is lesbian because she had an abusive relationship with her first boyfriend, and only girls coud turn her on from that day forward.
so, with all of that, what shoud i do /r/? wait another 6 months for a better opportunity? have a talk about this with her on st. valentines? forfiet all of this for the sake of preserving friendship? i'm open to all of your suggestions, /r/. "have a sex change" included
love you everyone who read this post, god bless your filthy soul <3
pic of her and me on a hike