feelings of inhumanity

am not mentally in the "right" headspace for a while now which often gets worse during times of emotional and physical loneliness. because of the chronic loneliness, i have like other lainons naturally looked into philosophy and at times philosophize every aspect of life as a means to cope but there has been a lingering feeling of inhumanity in me that no amount of philosophising can satisfy. a feeling of being trapped inside thick layers of skin, a feeling the absurdity of everything if that makes sense. it is hard to explain but everything feels odd from the way humans communicate all the way to how we eat and drink, how we act and believe, how emotional we sometimes can get, how we hate and loathe to how we love and cherish. it just feels empty in a way. it's even more puzzling to see how other humans react to things, take for example occasionally there would be a painting or photo or whatever and people would admire at how sophisticated and beautiful the meaning behind it is like am i missing the picture here? did something happen to me that makes me not see "it"? how warped is my sense of everything from everybody else? possibly way too stupid to realize it all?

Everything is absurd, the world is overflowing with lies and false pretense. Yet I know I also cannot experience things correctly, my body doesn't work right, too much vaccine damage, pesticides in food, and lingering infections.

>>94646 >has avitaminosis <hurr durr vaccine pesticides false pretense Lel. Been there due to eating soislop grade food for lenting

>"Let's check in on lainchan" >guis I'm autistic heres my thought after brainrotting at 3AM am I onto something? yeah

>>94660 It sounds like a pretty classic case of derealization, nothing to do with autism. t. sperg

>>94645 >admiring ugly art think of how people talk to each other "how are ya?" "well" neither really mean it, its just a performance according to protocol. Monkey see monkey do soykaf applies to other aspects of live too. People dont act genuine but how they think they should act.

>>94660 It's difficult to talk about anything else, everything is rotting. Hard to find topics of conversation while everything & everyone is decaying. I can't connect properly, and there's nothing to connect to.

>am not mentally in the "right" headspace for a while now which often gets worse during times of emotional and physical loneliness. because of the chronic loneliness, i have like other lainons naturally looked into philosophy and at times philosophize every aspect of life as a means to cope but there has been a lingering feeling of inhumanity in me that no amount of philosophising can satisfy. We live in beyond-Babylon huge cities, lainon! We live in places we aren't meant to live, lol! No wonder your "loneliness" triggers not over true solitude, but over ton and tons of people around you not giving a frick about you. 1. You merely don't belong to cattle-like people 2. A smol town coulda fit you better than a city that you perceive as a cold and gloomy place. Come to think of it, it was the other way round - a bunch of TOWNLIES would mock be for acting all METROPOLITAN. But now I, at least, realise we were too different to estimate one against another.

>>94673 >beyond-Babylon >look inside >Babylon

>>94645 Satanism has deeply corroded humanity. Love has been replaced with lust. Joy/passion has been replaced with materialism. The world has corroded due to deliberate systematic efforts to corrupt are spiritual bodies. Everything from the music that people listen to, to the institutions people work at, to the food we eat, has been corrupted with Satanism. We are bodies of light. TPTB want to destroy that part of us. They want to keep the people dumb, occupied with the material world, and keep us from reaching our full potential. Look into the 7 chakras. This is our spiritual bodies' power bank. There are certain vibrations that will either harm these chakras or strengthen them. When they are weak, we are closer to the devil. When they are strong, we are closer to God. The music we listen to plays a big role in this. The system has been poisoned with Satanic frequencies. Listen to 396 Hz (Root Chakra), 417 Hz (Sacral Chakra), 528 Hz (Solar Plexus Chakra), 639 Hz (Heart Chakra), 741 Hz (Throat Chakra), 852 Hz (Third Eye Chakra), 963 Hz (Crown Chakra). Start from the root and slowly make your way to the crown. If you don't believe any of this, God speed, there's no saving you.

>>94697 >>94697 I wonder if single-tone binaural beats count as nasheed

>>94706 I'm not saying it counts as nasheed or hymns or anything like that. These 7 chakras exist outside of religion. And TPTB know this. They target these chakra points to weaken us. Mainstream music has been poisoned with demonic frequencies and demonic lyrics. Doing a Satanic ritual can be as easy as playing one of these garbage songs out loud. And sometimes it's more subtle than that. Some artists will put Satanic lyrics when playing the song backwards. Saying LAM, VAM, RAM, YAM, HAM, OM, OM respectively will stimulate these chakra points. Try to listen to the frequencies and say these words respectively. You will feel the difference. This video demonstrates it https://inv.nadeko.net/watch?v=rfQMBZNShTY

>>94666 Savitri Devi talks about this. The difference is are you going to be part of the rot, rise above it or go against it?

>>94725 You go against it until you rise above it. Conflict is unavoidable and ultimately makes you stronger. This is your role if you can't help but play it. That's really what the middle way and being in accord with the dao both are about. You're a social creature and hate what your peers have become. Take action and stick to your innate principles until you leave a mark in the world, one above pure rot. Understand the rot, be in it, be against it, be above it. A perennial struggle. Part of the ebb and flow of the universe. A Hegelian process with and through Schopenhauerian gnosis.

>>94730 It's also worth mentioning none of this really means much in the grand scale of things, you're just part of a process. Ethics and aesthetics are one. All you're choosing is a personal way to express yourself with the limited time you're allotted, building a bridge for others to do the same. The world will mock you with ironies and regret. It'll also pamper you and bend to your will. All you have to do is the inevitable as soon as you can, same way the rot takes all it can. And don't question it that much.

>>94725 ah ye, i loves me ma poo poo nazi literature. Apparently India-philic crackpot wiman have a stand and influence the ideology. https://www.mdpi.com/2077-1444/10/2/71