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I never really cared about anything. Everything I've ever done has been forced. maybe if you tell me things that you like it can make me find something nice to do.

Games and fapping preferably in a dark room away from humans

Lonely walks in the woods.

>>8954 that's.... exactly what I do.

I like building things if I have the time to do so. I also love reading and watching videos about alternative history. Taking pictures of the great outdoors is pretty nice as well, even if you only have a phone. I need to get back to writing poems and stories but I need to get back into the grove of things, I was once writing a generic post apocalypse book about a self insert teenager with katanas and it was going to have everything, comedy, politics, romance, but I lost the file to it, I remember it being pretty cringy though. Have you listened to chill hip hop/R&B from the likes of Nujabes or DJ Okawari? On some of my off days, I like to kick back and listen to that or some jazz. Other days, I'll play games like Neptunia or whatever else is on my backlog.

While reality ultimately is pointless you are still an animal craving meaning and purpose, unless you want to follow the path of monks you better start chugging that materialism whisky.

I care deeply about forces the public knows not of which all but secretive science ignore. I enjoy experimentation within such new yet ancient spheres of research. I care deeply about the true methods of understanding, of which the Scientific Method is only a dumbed down and incomplete part -- unwhole. The Ancient 'Law of Equivalent Exchange' was simply rephrased by Newton into his famous "laws of motion". The older Law applies universally, to energy and all other systems, not merely movement of objects. Likewise the Scientific Method was derived via dumbing down a more beautiful and fulfilling mental practice. Perhaps you don't care because everything promoted to you is dumbed down and made mundane? Imagine what science would be like today if the establishment were ignorant of magnetism and anyone who tried to demonstrate the phenomenon was considered a "crazy wizard obsessed with magic", to be dismissed as a charlatan or feared as a witch. Indeed, the word Magic and Magnet stem from the same source. Imagine today an establishment full of neutered minds whose disdain for those with imagination are no longer able to recognize new forces. Imagine being condemned for stating that "some rocks will move on their own when approached by others". Today's "science" is like this; So dumbed down that if anything defies their expectation or challenges the established view they willfully ignore fundamental forces -- Just as our ancestors once flatly stated "Matter doesn't move on its own unless demons are involved", then burned Magicians at the stake for magnetite DEMONstrations. The commoner culture around you builds mental hedges to guide you down predetermined paths. If you care about exploration of the unknown they'll shunt you into academic prisons for your mind. Common culture never tells you that cooperatives of independent researchers exist beyond the "university" system, nor publish any of their demonstrable works. Suppressive forces of commerce and state strive to shore up the bulwark of schooling indoctrination and silence those mad scientists who poke holes in their dams with new disruptive research. Therefore much is now done in secret. There is a whole world of exploration beyond what you've learned in school. It doesn't take a decade of college training as a parrot nor being placed in a gilded cage of professorship to do important new research. Just keep in mind the real politik I mention above. That the establishment is backed by the state in its resistance to new discoveries, especially those which may disrupt existing fields of research and commerce. We are all told that new advances in science will be adopted if better, but it is not always the case that new discoveries can change the world. Perhaps you would care if the system of learning hadn't banished your wonder by claiming there's nothing left to explore except via very expensive means? Or perhaps not. As much as we exalt alleged pioneers, most people don't care enough to become one, and those with such spirit are handicapped by believing academia is the only path to explore. There are useful things being done in universities, but beyond the ever present public eye there are even more amazing realms of possibility being explored. Perhaps you haven't the capacity to care. Many of your rulers willfully attend the sacrifice of Care. If do have the seeker spirit and truly care know that you don't have to be chained by a modern society of the mind, one can Break Away... Today technologists attempt to make our systems smarter and fail to understand the true Kybernetics (cybernetics, i.e., governing dynamics). This world is pregnant. I dearly love the hidden forces which breathe life into our true mental offspring.

>>8959 >Indeed, the word Magic and Magnet stem from the same source Nope, nice try bullsoykafter https://www.etymonline.com/word/magic?ref=etymonline_crossreference https://www.etymonline.com/word/magnet?ref=etymonline_crossreference

>>8962 > trusting etymonline Keep buying the academic brainwashing. Protip: That "book burning" thing done in the Reformation era? Yeah, that fuarrrked your etymology up. You see, zealots like Scaliger then rewrote history according to their dogma, and academia still teaches it. As for the old books which your etymology is allegedly based, we don't have them. The Reformation's religiously motivated scribes "copied and corrected" the ancient manuscripts to "preserve" them, then the original books disappeared, frequently entire libraries burned shortly after having the important works "archived". So, show me the primary sources (there is none), or you're linking to BS indoctrination. If you want to know the etymology of languages, first start with the "Native American" Zuni Tribe. Once you figure out why they speak Japanese words then you'll quickly understand how etymology really works, and why Magnet comes from the same source as Magic... Meanwhile, outside of the BS academia: We extract Free Energy literally from Thin Air https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENeDkGce5-4 This is just one of many sources of power you won't get research grants to develop.

>>8959 >the scientific method is dumbed down >people are doing extra interesting disruptive research on intentionally not-funded topics >the system is breaking little by little I mean this without any sarcasm or malice, please tell me more. I was information sponge and I like looking for patterns and understand things more in detail yet school system feels restrictive. Is there a way a simpleton like me could reach these Gods you speak of? Maybe read some of their findings?

>>8952 I'm mostly the same as you, I find it difficult to care about much, but I'll give it my best shot. My senses are some of the only things I can feel connected to. Things like the taste of the air on a rainy day, the sound of the rain on the rooftops, the feeling of the wind on my wet skin, the salty spray of the sea from a boat, the feeling of snow crunching under my feet, the rough pain of rubbing my unprotected hands and face in that snow, the bite of rubing my finger along a freshly honed razor, the watering of my eyes when staring into a roaring fire. That sort of stuff.

I like writing. Being able to convey yourself probably better than IRL and without any interaction to boot!

I can't find any fun activities online and i don't have the motivation either. Every fuaarkin' day, i just try to read non-mainstream mangas about hikkis but they are pretty rare since everyone is a tomoko user or a satou user. Sometimes, i try to listen to vocaloid but i can't find anything interesting so i'm over that.... Recently, i started playing SNES games and i'm really hooked on Pokémon Fire Red. When i'm not online, i just spend the entire day watching TV in my room.

>>8977 Gee, i know how you might feel. Just take small steps to be creative, try new things like drawing writing etc. Best something that might seem not to fit your interest too much, some things are quite interesting when you get a better understanding. Doesnt have to be good at first, but just try things that you can actually do stuff with little material investment.

Learn a martial art, and things will fall into place.

I enjoy researching the truth of our ancient past, such as the evidence of a recent cataclysmic flood which deposited mud halfway up the 1st story windows of many buildings, esp. in Russia & former-soviet-union. During the religious reformation history was rewritten, scholars and their books burned, and some technology was suppressed, such as the atmospheric energy collection tech (which Tesla wanted to revive, but was denied as it goes against rule by Hydraulic Despotism). The history taught in academia is this obviously wrong & rewritten BS. Everyone who studies the world figures this out, but the knowledge can only really be spread to the masses by slipping it under the censor's noses. So, we see references to ancient lost tech heavily in fiction. Lain even asks WTF she's seeing (reference to mud flood + atmospheric electrical towers, as Lain is about to rewrite history). The Truth is Out There, Lain.... WAY out there, like, you wouldn't even believe it if you saw it, mang.