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why do i have such difficulty articulating myself if i havent prepared what i have to say in advance? if i havent written or practiced a thought (rehearsed it in my head / aloud to myself / in a voice memo) prior to speaking, i won't speak until i have. otherwise, when i do speak without preparation, my thoughts and words are very disjointed with long pauses, i'll backtrack a lot, i will lose my train of thought, and/or i'll say things that just aren't true to what i actually believe/mean. are these traits indicative of anything? is this just "social anxiety"? i used to talk even less as a kid until i learned that preparing my lines gives me something to say. like otherwise i have no ammo and have to craft something on the spot

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>>74675 autism, probably body too empty

Hey I understand this, and still get like this if the conditions are right. I ain't the best at socializing but here's my take. Do you actually want to socialize when this happens? Much of socializing is having good company and getting into that flow state. You have a ton to talk about but don't realize it if you feel constricted and need to sell the very thing you're trying to say, and the blaming yourself is just compounding it. Solution is to stop giving a fuarrrk, particularly about your own appearances. If you really do like your company so much as to suffer through this and be pleasing, well just voice your opinion and jump on tangents, get rid of your high bar for what's interesting conversation and just engage whether that be talking nonsense or not respecting the subject at hand or whatever -- it's more difficult to clash the social than you think. And as alluded maybe you just don't like your company in which case it might not be worth putting yourself through it in the first place.

>>74675 >otherwise, when i do speak without preparation, my thoughts and words are very disjointed with long pauses, i'll backtrack a lot, i will lose my train of thought, and/or i'll say things that just aren't true to what i actually believe/mean. you just need to train more. did you know some singers actually can't sing in front of crowds since their focus goes away from their voice box and into that one person staring at them weirdly. you have different mind/brain state when you're with others, while it's not exactly a bad thing it could mean that your active brain centers would be different than when you're doing your stuff. just practice more or focus on the feeling. I even sometimes get different (or worse) result when I'm recording myself with a device than when I'm saying stuff or making music while not recording at all. it has to do with my focus being overly caring towards that device and I found that watching that animation of the wave/volume kinda makes me ignore the fact so it's somewhat distracting to the point I feel like my focus is within reach again. just try to distract yourself. you may have spoken on front of a big crowd, I did that once and my focus went out-of-course. give it a few years of consistent (but not too much) practice. I am mostly esl and I could barely speak up in english in public (or calls) but now I can do that without problems. also moving back to this part >since their focus goes away from their voice box and into that one person staring at them weirdly. I think it has to do with our line of sight? sometimes my mind thinks differently when we look at very far places, when we look at something within our span it also feels like my mind thinks different, etc. when I'm recording and hyperfocused on the recorder I make a mess, but when I just look far or close my eyes I just perform normally.