Discussion of childhood traumas.

I didn't post this in vent because although it does work like that too in some way, what I want to achieve with this thread is the discussion of how childhood traumas affect us neurologically, psychologically and physcally. When I was 10 I started to talk with people online about sexual stuff, with both men and women. The fact that when I try to remember my childhood all I can remember is having calls while masturbating or doing lustful things while the person on the other side of the phone would give me orders isn't really a good sign, I wonder if the reason why I'm so insecure and sexually messed up is because of this. I sometimes wish that I could've stayed as a kid forever. I will never understand why, I just talked with these bunch of people, and one day my mother discovered the conversations and she didn't know english but my sister did so she basically told her everything I guess... I wish I could start all over, and to simply choose to never have the conversations that I had with this men and women as a child. I even sort of feel bad for making a thread about this, but I hope that someone gets some good life advice out of this, I'm a hypocrite who doesn't like making things about himself but that at the same time enjoys doing it. Maybe I deserve what happened to me as a child. "Maybe".

>I'm a hypocrite who doesn't like making things about himself but that at the same time enjoys doing it. >Maybe I deserve what happened to me as a child. No bro. Children deserve support and to not be neglected as you unhappily were. And you're doing everyone around you and everyone you'll ever meet in the future a favor by working in healing yourself from these psychological fuarrrkups. Do you have close female friends? Most women know that talking about this stuff is not just self-serving bullshit. For dudes it generally takes some work to realize that, like it's not as inrinsic (I think that word exists). >I wish I could start all over. Yeah, we all do at some point. Life is like that, time is like that. But all we can do is deal with the soykaf and get stronger in the process. It's like any other process, it seems impossible at the beginning but if you dedicate time to it, like any skill, you'll get better. >I wonder if the reason why I'm so insecure and sexually messed up is because of this. Yeah that's a possibility. I don't wanna just sugartalk you. It definitely was an important part of your sexual development. But you can unscrew yourself up. It just takes work. Emotional wounds don't heal themselves like flesh wounds. They're not like a broken bone that soldered back the wrong way and now you're crippled for life. We're quite malleable. If I tried to give some advice: Think about it in a way that doesn't hurt too much. Try to talk to one or two trusty people, sensible women if possible. Don't rush it. Don't dig yourself into a hole by dragging yourself across your mud too much, or talking to someone and drowning them in your half-digested crap. But do a little a day. I wish you the best.