Fuck this shit

Long Post In the past few years I wasn't socializing much at all. I'd play games all day, code, etc. I didn't care about friends. I hated going out, I was super anxious and low self-esteem. Then everything changed. I made a few close friends, began socializing. Would go out everyday, do something fun. I fell apart with them. Doesn't matter how. That lowered my self-esteem again. A few months passed. I've been trying to get close to these other 2 guys. They seemed fun, we'd go out pretty often. However, most of the time I'd be the one inviting them. Not them inviting me. I get it that I'm sometimes "jealous" or paranoid when someone doesn't invite me somewhere. But there have been a few times where they go out without me and do things that we would usually do together - all 3 of us. Now I just don't get it if they don't want to be close with me or is it just me being paranoid. I don't understand these people anymore... How the fuarrrk do I just make friends? I have lots of people that I know from the past, but we're not friends, we're not close and we haven't talked for years.

>>60431 The best way to find friends is shared hobbies or work/school. You should analyze whether the 2 friends you currently have, are the kind of people you might be get able to get closer to or whether they aren't interested in deeper friendship. You also said that you know a lot of people but you haven't talked with them in a while. Perhaps you could try to pick 1 or 2 persons and try to contact them? Also perhaps you might be interested in Lainchan IRC? Install Hexchat and read https://www.lainchan.org/irc.html Do not read crap books like How to Win Friends and Influence People (this book teaches you to be a good salesman instead).

>>60431 >where they go out without me and do things that we would usually do together - all 3 of us. given your story, they had been friends before you entered this circle, so don't overthink it too much.

>>60431 Hard facts: there are no friends in this life after adulthood. grow the f up. survival is procreation. dying is socrates. yeah. think about it. it was written. all these thinkers, used. the beneficiaries are rich to this day. they sell his words. they are the same famililies that killed him. lain was a tool for the aliens. word