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In the past few months, I've noticed lots of weird things happening. These things could be a result of lots of stress. Long Post Alright, it's gonna be difficult to describe it. The thing is, completely random, irrelevant stuff bothers me. I mean complete nonsense details, most of those things are just in-my-mind. I'll give you a few examples: So lets say I was on my PC and wanted to click a certain button. The button was "OK", but I misclicked on it the first time and only clicked on it right the second time. That bothers me. Then I'll go back in my mind, to re-think why and how I managed to miss it. Then irl, I'll click it again, this time I hopefully, don't miss. Because if I do, I go to the loop of doing it until I get it right the first time. Another one: I try opening the room door, my hand slips because it's sweaty and I "fail" to open the door. I then, again, re-think how I managed to fail that, and then open the door properly. You pretty much understand what I mean. Keep in mind, that the "re-thinking" process takes at least a minute of 2, of me not being able to do something and wasting time on thinking about that soykaf. It happens many times a day, everyday and it's driving me crazy. If I avoid thinking about any of these "small events", I feel bad and I pretty much get forced to re-think it and make sure that "everything is fine". It's driving me crazy, it's tiring, it's all in my mind, but I can't escape it. Other things I also noticed: - my ability to focus is fuarrrked - daily tasks seem difficult to complete - i hate it when something is messy, dirty etc. (ex. the room, the furniture). by hate it, i mean i cant stand it - random thoughts, always negative ones - easily getting offended by my friends - difficult to remember things I want to know what is wrong with me. Does anyone here have something similar to what I do?

>>60154 Sounds like OCD combined with ADHD and burnout induced focus issues. If you work on something heavily mentally taxing (like programming), take few days off. Other than that I can't help you.

>>60154 Also severe lack of sleep would have similar symptoms, but you didn't mention any lack of sleep, so I don't know enough about your specific case.

>>60156 OCD does not often (but I know it can) suddenly develop n the span of a few months, and ADHD does not period. Doing something taxing I really dont think will help and could even just make it worse unless OPs stress and issue stems from understimulation which he said hes under "lots of stress" so I dont think adding something on top of that is going to help. The thoughts do seem compulsive bit that doesnt immediately mean OCD. But I get it theres a lot of info missing here I understand how you reached those conclusions but I dont agree. >>60154 So yeah no need to apologize for long post it could be longer even. You left out some key details I think. These would be what are the stressors going on right now, and what has changed in the past few months or just prior to the timespan in which this has been going on. I dont think your fuarrrked or this is just how you are going to be forever now, it seems like something is going on in your life, or maybe in all our lives. I actually have also been very agitated and emotional, quick to irritate for the past two months. I also have quit drinking for the past few months though, however I think it isnt that alone for me. Its compounded by some environmental factors, as on average its very manageable for me without those things. It still is manageable even with them, so lets leave it at yes I can relate but lets talk about your specific instance as it likely only shares a few things in common with say, why im easy to anger with friends lately. Some of what you are describing, the OCD-like thoughts and loops, regardless of why I can say for sure have practical solutions in behavioural therapy. As in there is proven on paper ways to manage and reduce thoughts like that, its something along with anxiety we know can be fixed or reduced with time. But another question is has this ever happened before? Do you have a propensity to think like that?

>>60161 The stress was related to exams and not-knowing if I passed or not for those few months. As far as I can recall, I never had these type of thoughts, or as I say "events" before. It's pretty new and I don't know how to fix it. Although I noticed something, if such event happens in the beginning of the day and I manage to somehow ignore it and not re-think it (as I described before) - it gets easier to ignore it and the rest of the day it's not as bad. So you said that I haven't mentioned certain details. Is there anything else I should let you know? >>60157 Also, no lack of sleep. I've been sleeping for around 6-8hours mostly. Sometimes even 9hours. Yes, I sometimes wake up tired, but it's not very often. I shouldn't worry about that. >>60156 Programming has been difficult for me lately. It's hard to come up with any programming ideas and even if I do, all I do is create a folder with the project name and I don't even bother to start the project itself.

Update: I looked up OCD symptoms and I'm 99% sure that it's positive. - cleaning and hand washing (yes) - checking - such as checking if doors are locked or the gas is off (yes. i literally re-check like 3 times) - counting (no not really) - ordering and arranging (yes) - hoarding (no) - asking for reassurance (yes?) - repeating words in their head (YES) - thinking "neutralising" thoughts to counter the obsessive thoughts (if im not tired enough, yes) - avoiding places and situations that could trigger obsessive thoughts (pretty much) Now, I can't know for sure, but I don't want to go to the psychologist yet. I'll try fixing it myself and ignoring it, it's gonna be difficult, but possible, hopefully.

>>60163 >>60154 I've dated 2 girls who were diagnosed with ocd. Both of them had the same issue you have where if they don't do something the "right" way, they'll have to repeat it until it feels right, however in your examples it seems as though your failures are actual mistakes, albeit small ones. With those girls, their "mistakes" were things like a door just seemed a little off when it closed so they had to close it again and again until it feels right, otherwise, in their minds, something bad will happen that doesn't logically follow (e.g. the toilet flushed weirdly, if i dont flush it the correct way, my family will die very soon), or they'll just have a sense that some vague, unspecified bad thing is going to occur. They also find themselved blaming themselves for tragic events that are unrelated to them. Things like passing a car accident and feeling like it's because they opened the fridge too quickly. It's really sad. Keep in mind that many symptoms of OCD are more explainable by other issues. For example, generalized anxiety disorder can also explain why you feel the need to check the stove or locks, why you must go over your failures, even small ones, why you avoid triggering situations and why you need reassurance. Anxiety could also explain why you would be worried that you have OCD. I'm not saying you have an anxiety disorder, just wanting to point out that OCD isn't a quick and easy thing to self-diagnose and that there are many other explainations for your symptoms. Also, be weary of some of the examples given. Everyone worries that they leave the stove on or the door unlocked from time to time. If it is OCD, it's really something you have to get professional help with. You can't just will it away, unfortunately.