Only social when no one knows me

I always thought of myself as a very asocial and withdrawn person, but then I realized that I am actually not like that at all, I can be very nice, outgoing, charismatic, nice etc but only when people know nothing about me and I have no idea why I feel that way. Like when I come to a new environement where no one knows me, then I will be the center of attention and make friends and such easily, but if even just one person there knows me from before I will sit in the corner of the room and in complete silence. And it is not like I have some grand sin to be ashamed of either, and I have been like this for years so it is likely not going away. And it is not just someone knowing me from before, if someone (usually the boss) gets a dossier on me that has some information on me then I will also be asocial, but again, if I am anonymous then I am the most social person you will meet. Anyone have any idea why I am like this? Is this some kind of diagnosable condition? Like I really have no idea how to deal with this other than to pack my soykaf and move to some soykafhole where absolutely no one will know me. But even then someone will find out, usually it is the boss but it also could just be some coworker accidentally seeing me talk with my parents on the phone and the charade is over. Why?

no offense Lain , but I want to tell you the blunt truth . that prly is like kicking dead whales down the beach 4 ppl you talk to , when they like you .

you shouldn't try to diagnose your self , just put effort into having more compassion .

Maybe because you haven't created any expectations you're anxious to meet? I still can't speak to some family members just because it has always been that way There's no way for me to change our relation

>>47858 Most people are awful. Only fools would question if hermit IB types were around terrible people no one would want to talk to.

you're a manipulative POS, that's is

I used to be a bit like you when I was growing up. Heightened self-awareness, social anxiety, low self-esteem, fear of showing emotional vulnerability and so forth.

>>48091 stop fuxing ppl Lain manipulation makes cooperation possible makes experience or life possible one manipulates entities to create glitches those glitches create non-determinism non-determinism creates qualia

You don’t have a personality, you are an empty shell of a person with a fake image you twist and change depending on who you’re with. I would feel sad for you Lain, if you didn’t make it your life’s mission to swallow as many cocks as possible, I have a feeling you’re into the big black ones too

I'd say I'm in a similar situation, but I'm starting to ease up a bit more I think. I think it's safe to say I've changed someway over the past couple years, and I think I feel some sense of duty to act like how I might have once been with old friends. Duty is probably too strong of a word but I felt to conviene at some crossroads of person to at least socialize. Now I'm starting to feel it in reverse. In a new situation, I might be more open to people I've known longer and possibly shyer around newer people. it's hard to say