Orgastic Feelings in Deep Conversations

When I have a very intriguing conversation with a friend, or when making eye-contact, I always get flits of this "Orgastic" feeling. Since I am a pervert, I get very strange somatic feelings, like an involuntary "jump" into the body that I stroll the nights in (see pic related). While this had caused me nervousness back when I had extreme shame about my desires, with me even shuttering parts of my consciousness and "looking into a void", it's not actually a bad feeling, it's very comforting, in-fact, and it's impossible for anybody to actually see what goes on in my fantasy life anyway, and I'm unlikely to act "offensively" as I don't have a social-fetish. But, having this discovery about myself has led me to answer the question, "is this Universal?" and "If this is a Universal sentiment amongst man-kind, what does this feeling drive those with social-fetishes, or sadistic fetishes to do to those around them?" or even "What do even euphilic people feel during these visions, and how do they act when this happens?" Have you recognized this at all within yourself, the strange grip of the Dionysian mind of the night creeping itself into your nice little coffee side chat with a friend? If so, do these "Dionysian" Sexual thoughts change your behaviour in any way? Do they make you act differently, maybe more aggressively? Or talk differently? Is this a manifestation of one's "true-self" through their behaviour with the other person (i.e. revealing their soul/revealing the path that their libido/personality/true-will desires to move in within the social world of humans)? What does Lain personally think?

Somebody bumped the strange/retard threads. Of course they did

>>47556 fuarrrk off, normal person. Bump.

>psychoanalysis drones you're a lost cause sorry

>>47610 I literally edited this down to a quarter of its size, removed so many things that were not even buzzwords or inflammatory or nonsense, just things I thought might trip the systems like talking about board activity, and I still cant send it. Im officially done.

>>47687 Also I know its confusing still, I was trying to remove so many words to see what it was and could not figure it out and as a result its now weirdly vague but hopefully you get it. the board is not nice.

>>47687 I did the same thing, I hope I got what you were trying to say.

>>47687 >>47692 If I had the password I would delete these threads, utterly useless.

>>47692 and me too again with the cant post. really would love to know what the hell it's picking up on, in fact I kind of think it should be transparent and listed somewhere honestly.

You should continue to be ashamed, it would help you self-censor yourself to look and feel above 90IQ

>>47692 You should take up journaling. You don't ever need to worry about how others perceive what you're writing about as it is entirely for you and you can write anything whatsoever, the most heinous of thoughts (you could even destroy it after writing). It's extremely psychologically helpful, especially if you have no one to talk to in person to externalize your thoughts.

>>45820 I feel really bad for people who see everything through the lenses of sexuality and fetish. Maybe the puritans had a bit of a point (admittedly taken too far). I have a sense of frisson when I have an intense, rewarding, close conversation. I don't liken it to sexual arousal, but I can understand the tendency to do so in some. I think you need to find a more complete self. Not necessarily that you need to be repressed, but you need to find more of yourself outside of the degeneracy and decadence. Social fetish? What a fuarrrking dystopian term. First we are social distanced, now we have social fetishes. This was not meant to be and is a sign of sickness.

>>47588 lmao based >>47556 you don't want to see strange/retard threads? What do you wanna do, see endless threads on how to program yourself to be a bugman using javascript? Ugh

lets keep discussing this >>50548 relevant

>When I have a very intriguing conversation with a friend, or when making eye-contact, I always get flits of this "Orgastic" feeling. Since I am a pervert, I get very strange somatic feelings, like an involuntary "jump" into the body that I stroll the nights in (see pic related). Perversion is pretty common among teens especially during puberty. > it's impossible for anybody to actually see what goes on in my fantasy life anyway, and I'm unlikely to act "offensively" as I don't have a social-fetish. >But, having this discovery about myself has led me to answer the question, "is this Universal?" Perversion is probably universal, just have a look at someone's web browsing history. >and "If this is a Universal sentiment amongst man-kind, what does this feeling drive those with social-fetishes, or sadistic fetishes to do to those around them?" or even "What do even euphilic people feel during these visions, and how do they act when this happens?" They probably don't want to break the law or social construct, as analogy you can think of "borderline" and full-time criminals if you transform the idea. >Have you recognized this at all within yourself, the strange grip of the Dionysian mind of the night creeping itself into your nice little coffee side chat with a friend? This is normal if you're on your teens. People usually discuss porn or hentai with close-age friends. I guess you don't know this maybe you're out of the loop since you're the outcast? Not meant to be rude. And also; Thoughts poison the will. Most people are intoxicated by the manipulative ad/platforms, film and music industries. It's the ilerminaty, but what shines on a screen can change a man's perception. Subliminals in the anthem, or maybe that platform who punishes people with "strong" ideology and forces content creators to pander to a certain "ideology" but end up making children fuarrrked up. Proof? Look up "before and after covid gacha". This is an example of a feedback looping echo chamber. Maybe orchestrated and intentional or just accidental. No one will never find out unless someone blows something. Here's the roadmap of this feedback: >> platform is pro-ideology >> content creator panders to not get "silenced" >> being pro-ideology sets you towards success due to algorithm priority >> ideology spread by influencers even if it's "forced or fake" they come out as "supportive" of such ideology >> propaganda received by end users aaaand yup. Guess the age of these "end users" I'm neither anti nor pro any of these ideologies but I think it's the perfect example. Not all minds are immune to propaganda. Maybe old people are immune due to inability to learn "new tricks" but I think the current society's younger generation is corrupted by manipulative big tech and ARE much worse deviants compared to you, me, or "chan old-users" in the future (although I think you're 16). My stance is neutral, I just watch it all burn (as big tech is too powerful) and say a few things sometimes pointing out what's (to me is very) obvious and watch people freak out. >If so, do these "Dionysian" Sexual thoughts change your behaviour in any way? Do they make you act differently, maybe more aggressively? Or talk differently? I think I've reached a point where I've lost interest in "sexual thoughts" with human attraction and all I have now is only "sexual wonderment" and at most times this isn't even sexual in nature, just the idea of what beauty is and I think this libido is a great inspiration for enlightened works of art. >Is this a manifestation of one's "true-self" through their behaviour with the other person (i.e. revealing their soul/revealing the path that their libido/personality/true-will desires to move in within the social world of humans)? Maybe? The true-self will always be something without (or with less) thought as I've said "Thoughts poison the will" but you have no control who poisons whose well. Big tech? Gubermint? Experiments? Don't care, I guess poison that doesn't kill makes you stronger the same way trees grow stronger the more challenges they take, worse weather, stony soil, more room for strong character growth (however I think this last statement is flawed).