some thoughts which can waste my time.

Do you guys have some great topic of ideas which can make me waste of my time? Today, I think this. Maybe, Am I a mental retarded or a cerebral palsy patient because of head injury which was caused by fighting or an randomly accident when I was young? Not only that time, There's enough time and chance to get head injury, So sometimes I think, "Am I really me who I think my self?" Actually, the visual of me through the mirror is just an hallucination and the real one looks like having a Dawn's syndrome? All normal things like saying and thinking is illusion. In real, Do I speak words inarticulately and hesitantly? What about you guys? It's okay if that's meaningless. I just want to hear and think about that for enjoying (wasting) my time.

>>45779 Perhaps try your hand at learning mathematics? Not the high school level stuff but the stuff they would teach in a university's math major course. You can get PDF's for textbooks easy online or watch lectures. You can also try philosophy or something like that.

>>45779 Just try to make your life teem with Love. Think about Love 24/7. Love is all that truly exists in this glitterboy and bugman infested world. [if you're a norm!e who is sexually attracted to others, and has 3D attractions, idk how to help you to be honest]

>>45784 Attraction to real people is the norm, not the opposite. "Normal user" nowadays is more of a coping mechanism for people who are socially incapable instead of a word to bash new users and the idiocy of the mainstream. Someone crying on Reddit about Donald Trump and watching the most mundane of the mundane TV crap like Seinfeld or The Office would be a good candidate for normal user. >>45779 If you're feeling up to it, you could try learning OpenGL/Vulkan and create some cool soykaf on the GPU.

>>45781 >Perhaps try your hand at learning mathematics? Not the high school level stuff but the stuff they would teach in a university's math major course. I second this thought. I am studying physics, and oh man, the math. Its so beautiful. I absolutely enjoy writing math. I use a tech drawing pen with chinese ink on white paper for my homework, and it's a bliss. And this is something I deeply believe. Math is the perfect abstract art. You can stare at a beautifully written theorem for hours, abstracting ideas out of it, using your mind at high speeds. Its an unexplicable rush of joy. So yeah, try math if you enjoy being aware of your own mind. If you do want to start, read "how p prove it". Its a basic introduction to theorem prooving techniques. Or if you dont want something as technical, read "flatland", which is a story about spacial dimentions and abstraction.

>>45815 OP here. `Flatland' is looked interesting for me. I found a PDF, and I'm gonna read it. But I couldn't find `How p prove it'. Would you give me any links or stores where I can get it? >>45781 Mathematics is such great. I have some books for high school mathematics. But sadly those need basic information. Concepts are based on subordinated concepts. And subordinated concepts have its subordinated concepts too. That makes me feel discouraged. But, yeah. I'll try again. >>45784 What is love? I dunno what really love is. Would you teach me if you don't mind?

>>45784 Hey 2D negro. Your delusions aren't real and you are a clump of waste capturing every oxygen like a mouthbreather, do you have that no chin aesthetic on your face?

>>45825 "How to prove it", horrible typo.

>>45825 >What is Love? The whole idea of love having to exist solely within the close confines of sexual relationships is a meme designed to keep the children of Abraham in a state of childhood for their whole entire lives. Love doesn't even have much to do with sex, really; all that sex is is the most concentrated example of one's personality, and one's ability to love, but love is everywhere, saturated in every single movement you make, every single sentence that comes to your mind, and in pursuing every single goal you set out to accomplish. Love is a Transcendental emotion: it's a nice comforting feeling which is also paradoxically also tied with vulnerability; it's the entire backdrop to the dreams we have during the night; it's the eruption of a volcano; it's grounded in one having a strong appreciation of themselves while also paradoxically having a strong appreciation for others; it's the deepest reflection of the soul; it holds one's sense of morality and ethics; it holds one's soul itself. Love is the perennial joy that one gets when they know that they can rely on someone, and someone sees them for who they truly are. Love is the atoms of the real world, the Matrix is constitutionally built on consumerism and money. >Would you teach me if you don't mind? Pay attention to your masturbation fantasies, and get over the societal guilt that had been indoctrinated into you. Keep the lingering sense of shame, however, shame can't hurt you like a guilty conscious can and will, and with the lingering threat of shame you will still be able to be loved and love back, with guilt you cannot. Guilt will turn you into a monster, whether you destroy yourself from the inside, or destroy others on the outside. Shame will keep you on a leash -- at least.

>>45841 I second this book, its what I used as preparation for Spivak's Calculus- another great book which you should check out once you've read at least 3 or 4 chapters of How to Prove It. Also, you might find this useful if you're interested in studying higher mathematics: https://github.com/ystael/chicago-ug-math-bib

>>45825 >What is love? Obviously...

>>45779 Contemplate the following question: Do gay dudes get turned on by their own wieners?

>>47696 >Do gay dudes get turned on by their own wieners? Speaking as a bi dude (which is close enough for the purposes of the discussion), actually yeah. As the philosopher says, "I'd fuarrrk me."

>>47696 I liek Scrubs too.

>47696 Um... maybe not? First of all. I can't understand most acts from gays 'cuz I'm not a gay. Wiener is just a eliminatory / reproductive organ. Right? And 'turn on' is just a ready or a signal for reproductive. So there's no reason to get 'turn on' with their wieners, also others wieners too. 'Cuz both mans means not breeding. There's no reason to be turned on except if he stimulte his things himself to make it be turned on. >you are soykaf. there's not only breeding. We have love. What the fuarkk is luv? I really don't know what really love is like I asked in >>45825. Is that really love? Y do I meet and love? love is the goal? Or a process for a goal? I'm confused. Actually love is clearly defined already which don't need to any explain and I have a disorder make my understanding be soykaf.

>>45825 >What is love? It's the instinct for psychological attachment/companionship that (sometimes) pairs with sexual attraction. It's born of a reproductive strategy that wagers you can rear more children if you continue to take care of/protect your mate in the long term. In normal people (non ASPD sufferers) it's equally as important as sexual release.