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I'm feeling extremely sad that I event don't want to write anything here...

happens to me very often. sometimes il write a whole post out and be like "this doesnt even fuarrrking matter" and just delete it. its important to know how severe your mental state is when doing these things. For example if you are only kind of sad venting on an imageboard, writing, drawing, whatever might help. But theres a sadness tipping point lets say where those same activities might turn on you, you find yourself unable to do them or have any desire to, and the fact that this is the case plunges you deeper. of course im not talking about a crisis level mode, im just saying a pretty bad severe case of the feeling hopeless, alone, cold or whatever it may be. In those moments where I feel so fuarrrked up I dont want to do anything but to even sit there is unbearable I like to snort some cocaine or adderall. But when thats not an option, because I dont have the money, or access, or im trying to deal with my problems and not run away from them, I like to read religious stuff. I read religious stuff about stuff I dont even believe in. You can read whatever you like but id highly reccomend my topic of literature. If your willing to work with me on this then id tell you it brings great wisdom thats lasted centuries, comfort and purpose, unobservable and immaterial wonders and struggles that detatch the mind from all this, because you have battles to fight of the soul. If you think im an idiot just realize that if im desperate enough to turn to drugs or killing myself when im sad im desperate enough to turn to religion, and maybe you are too. Have you ever considered how it might be worth some people thinking your stupid to have complete blind faith in the idea that you have an all powerful guiding and loving spiritual god companion by your side. To know full well it itself isnt rational but it is rational to do so as it benefits your livelihood and survival? Can I have a minute to tell you about our lord and savior jesus christ? im actually a muslim but anyways thats all good luck chin up. we always think the sadness in front of us is the worst, and yet most of us, and all of us today here in the past, make it through and it becomes just another sadness. If there is anything perhaps you should have faith in, you being this mind that can see future and past and be anxious and worry and fear and be sad, you should have faith in the you that is just living in the moment and always pushes through. Pushes through despite your time travelling brain forecasting the future as death or endless sadness.

>>13693 Well actually I am Christian, but I don't believe that much in God, its complicated... but your post really gave me some motivation, I thought that no one would ever find out I sent something or anything... I'm just asking why in my head. Anyway, now I will have some problems at school so I won't have thatvmjch free time ... Gotta study. Once again thanks :)

>>13712 funny im a poor muslim in practice but have heavy belief in god generally. glad I helped, I just know ive felt like this, and if I posted this and saw no response ever id expect it but itd bum me out a bit.

>>13693 Well I was expecting to get no answers but, I don't know, world is weird place and I am even more weird