Something is wrong when you are behind

Looks like a paranoia, everybody knows How to talk, How to joke, How to behave. Everyday seems like the day of my death and i Sense it's comming. O tried the literature, drugs. O don't hate people but I feel I'm so distant, while the "depressed" teenagers act like they are proud to be different I'm scared of what is comming

This is fairly natural, Lain. A lot of us feel that way on /hum/ and often times the source of this feeling is the attempt to fit in, instead of the attempt to find what matters to you and then live accordingly. The difference in these 2 approaches is that while you're trying to fit in, you will be unable to have the insight to find out what matters to you and what kind of people makes you feel like you belong. Introspection allows you to understand yourself and understand what you really want out of the people around you.

It's hard and easy to relate to someone on an image board. It's also hard to explain this kind of feeling, they just appeared, never induced. It's not depression, because I still have goals, and motives. it's a beautiful and weird feeling, also uncertain. Not superiority, just a state. It's not just a feeling of not being understood, this is common in chans, because we tend to diverge in interests and values, people like that can even be socially integrated and feel like they are just using a mask. Death is not longer a fear, is more like the last step to completeness, to be who I am. I am conscious of it and I accept it. When look into my past, it was more like a struggle than a quest for happiness, destined to self-sacrifice to some value, like I should embrace suffering and give meaning to it. More a feeling than a thought.

>>13294 >Looks like a paranoia It's called "sobriety" and there's an easy treatment for it.