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Im such a loser. I dont think im even on the level tequired to feel love. It is like kicking dead whales down the beach. Im so alone. Sorry. But i feel so alone.

>>10749 And you don't seem to understand.

>>10749 ok? do you want a lain waifu pillow or something?

>>10749 That is like kicking dead whales down the beach man, dont get too worked up, for whats it worth it were with you. >>10751 Holy soykaf i so want that.

Hello my frienda. I am a friend of you, an old friend. I am introverted and have low social skills. I have tried to be normal for 2 years. I have’nt used computer for coding, I tried to get friends. This is over. I am kinda nice guy to people, I act nice and tried normal. Yesterday a group of people claimed I was discomforting people, especially girls. This shocked me. They said if I won’t stay away, they will report me police. I can have low social skills but I know I didn’t anything wrong. fuarrrk them. I know I was trying be normal but people understand what face is behind mask. I am not psycho just weirdo. I have friends who are girl but they know me. Anyway. It is over. I am damned guy of God I will live like weirdo until die. I lost my computer skills, anime manga information, sub culture of computer world etc. I won’t try be part of these people again. I could earn money instead of trying to be social. I just know , My personality won’t change and I am reason of all issues in my life. I am waiting help lainons, I want stay in a dark room enlighted with screen light. I am scaring these people, I hope I won’t see them and they don’t report me. Being nice is not solution of everything. There is no solution, only pain of existence. I really don’t know who am I and what will I do in future. I thinking about dropping out college, thinking about learning python. I need guide.

oh lain!

If you are considering learning python for career purposes, I suggest you make a small project and put it on github. This can be more useful in securing a job interview than having a degree in some cases. Pick a project that interests you. I hope you find people who appreciate your eccentricities. The world would be a rather boring place if everyone were normal.

>>10749 Hey if you wanna talk my email is: yuki@firemail.cc. Maybe you'd feel less lonely then, what happened? I do have many and quite varied interests, I'm sure there's something we could talk about (that is if you want to talk with someone).

I know that feel lain. It's okay. We still love you.

lain loves you, don't give up, in the wired or out of it lain is love

First of all, tell them they should be glad you not reporting THEM for harassment. Secondly, fuarrrk Python. Vuejs with Weex is how you build platform agnostic programs nowadays. Third, EVERYONE is a weirdo. Some people just have more experience in hiding it.

>>10818 Or promoting it. It's strange how others are good weird and bad weird..

>>10815 I want create my own business bro. But my business will be about privacy for everyone. I dlsgust apps watch our life. I hope I will create an alternative way for earning money from people, with subscriptions for me. I gave up buddy, I need little bit become social but I think I found few friends. But I just don’t know. I an introvert and I lost energy while talking with people. I will be careful about talking with people >>10817 I love you too. >>10816 I love you lain >>10818 Yeah I thought about reporting them because I did nothing wrong. Conservative sluts, they see themselves like Virgin Mary. I am rapist, calm down, I don’t try flirting with you. But it’s over now, I won’t think about this anymore. About Js, there is nothing worse than JavaScript, I would die instead of coding js.

Pretty Sad....

who needs love when you have consequentialism

that is for you to decide, notice you said feel love not be given love. some feel love from the fist of their partner. What is the real difference between you and someone who does feel love? I'd say it's only they allow themselves to feel loved, however I understand that's pretty meaningless to you or anyone. I'm sure you are familiar with the heroes journey? The story model where the hero goes on a great quest only to find what he was looking for was there all along. Its true the love is already there, if I knew you in real life I might be so frustrated and wonder why you can't just grab it because I see it right next to you. However you have your own personal blocks and your own journey you demand yourself to complete. Why is it you cannot feel love? And try to be productive, "i'm ugly" is uncontrollable but "I believe I am ugly" is.

You know how your childhood and teenage years are called your "formative years"? Well, what happens if you're shy to the point you spend them avoiding all social interaction? Now you're in your 20s and have no life experience whatsoever. You don't have any hobbies or interests, and trying to force them always fails. Is it possible that, by missing out on the period that was supposed to mould you as a person, you literally don't exist?A personality simply never developed in your brain? Would explain why you never feel excitement (or anything really) and just spend all day lying in bed.

>>11302 Unless you've spent your entire formative years in solitude, you still have a personality, albeit a soykafty one. What you're describing are called "feral children", children that spent their younger years without much contact with humans. In your case, you just developed alternative "strategies" to certain life demands, so you differ from a normal personality but still have one. A normal person, for instance, conceptualizes social interaction in a way that makes them easy to navigate and find rewards. Because you avoided social interaction, your conceptualization differs in a whole myriad of ways that will take time to undo. A personality is essentially a set of beliefs, memories, experiences, perceptions etc. that you use to navigate the world. >Would explain why you never feel excitement (or anything really) and just spend all day lying in bed. This is just depression. Which is inevitable, if you have a dysfunctional personality.

>>11302 This is pretty flawed thinking in my opinion. There isn't some kind of linear progression, people are different. You don't not have life experience you have a different kind of life experience. And people will value it, people aren't machines where if you don't have this, this and this they won't like you. Different kinds of people like you for different things. Probably the only shared thing that causes problems is social anxieties or a lack of desire to meet people. And likely that was there before "wasting" your childhood on the internet, if not the reason.