Awful canon event

(this is my first post on lainchan...sorry if I may sound strange, I just grew up in 4chan) >be me >15 virgin and horny af >frequenting a singing and dance course >there I meet a girl I like and I think loves me back >she acts always like a bitch around me with cuddles and shi >I express my feelings for her >Flabberghasted, doesn't want to talk with me ever again >We somehow keep being friends >Still acting like a bitch >she makes up absurd plans like going to live to new york together and become government spies >During an outing with his mom I unload her and say I don't want to be her friend anymore >She is super angry at me and doesn't want to see me anymore >from there on she keeps staying angry at me for random stuff that I didn't do (I was 15 and she was 16 or sum) >One day he gets pissed at me I swear to you completely randomly for a number of my mom boh >I write her absurd nasties sending her to hell and there she blocks me >I was so pissed off that I'm 100% sure if this had happened live I would have killed her >I write her absurd nasties and there she blocks me >I'm a bit sad, but Idc >A strange thing happens >On my tiktok 3 comment hearts appear under one video of mine with her account >I write her about it even tough she didn't want to even look at me >She acts crazy saying I hacked her account and soykaf I didn't do >talks bad about me with every person in the course >they all hate me for things I never did and I just quit because of the stress that I was having Because of this bitch I have been hating women, social media and all the friends that I had there for almost 2 years of my life, while being still in love with her. After many many years I still think about what the fuarrrk was wrong with that whore. I hate her so fuarrrking much. Oh btw obv no father figure and her mum was novax and other things. I was really mad and wanted to tell this story to internet in some way... it really changed the direction of my life. Also I'm remaining anonymous because I prefer it that way.

She probably liked you but wasn't ready to admit it. I think we've have a word for that in japenis. Her latter behaviour was probably because you didn't want to be with her and she wanted to bring you down for that so you would seek her companionship again. This is a common thing, I think. To destroy what you can't have(anymore).

>>101070 >She probably liked you but wasn't ready to admit it. Can't confirm, but still - perhaps... Also, that "chunnibyou" syndrome of not being exactly mature (the absurd plans part)

>>101070 You are saying that she liked me only after some time? Unfortunately one of our main arguments was that I was...pretty ongoing with her. I said that I was 15 and horny, and that's true. The point is that if you don't like me and you say that to me, I'm chill with it, but if then YOU remain around me and giving me signals, mlady, you're a bitch. Cause I was chill with that thing, but I really wanted her as a friend. The point is that she didn't act as a friend to me: I repeat, we made cuddles and soykaf, but she refused to say we were together. If you see that my acting towards cuddles and kisses is hornyness, then I think you need to let go of me, and not keep torturing me. I know we were both young and stupid, but damn. >>101071 Apart from what I've said up there, what is a chunnibyou syndrome? (Btw yeah she was strange af, her family was fuarrrked up, and she has always been friends with drug addicts. She still is btw, after more than 5 years. What a moron. I'm happy I left her, at the end of the day.

>15/16, whole story reads like limited relationship exp (not throwing shade, it's normal at that age regardless of what media and the internet ragebaits you to believe) >throwing crazy fits and sticking around for more Mate, take it from a seasoned veteran, both first-hand and with a circle that has had similar stories: time passes with or without you being angry or not, fixated on this person or not. It sucked, canon event of the negative kind I agree, but you're the one that makes it keep sucking by not letting go. Read up on Eckhart Tolle's concept of the pain body: you've just built a mental rut that's now too familiar and scary to break out of, and online algos reflect this back to you any chance they get. Go out, do stuff you like or try out stuff you never got around to, and meet people of all genders. Don't go for romance intentions every time. If it clicks, it clicks. If it didn't, good stuff rarely comes from forcing it. >Because of this bitch I have been hating women, social media and all the friends that I had there for almost 2 years of my life, while being still in love with her. This is exactly what being chronically online sounds like (harsh assumption and wording, maybe). What you'd benefit from is some positive distractions to create new routines that bring you into a better mindset.. >Oh btw obv no father figure and her mum was novax and other things. Stop trying to gather explanations about her (surrogates for closure, i get it), and start focusing on yourself. You'll be alright, buddy. Just stay less on the internet and keep an eye on the content you choose to ingest.

>>101189 thanks a lot for the response, mate. After her I had 2 different girlfriends and I'm searching for another one atm. The point is that you're right...I have a lot of hate in my heart and it's extremely difficult to let it out. I don't hate her anymore, I forgive her. I'm just sad because of the fact that she doesn't care about me anymore, but I do. I care about every human being on this heart, but I hate the fact that sometimes they don't want my love. I don't think it is about going out or anything, but more about caring less about people and what they think of me. Btw I love Ted Kaczysnki. I read his book. He's right.

Mods, why do people posting original comics and highly detailed openers get warnings, while this kid gets nothing? >>101068 Did you not explain yourself correctly or something? What I read is that a girl was hot and cold, you let yourself be lead around by her, and you had an argument over SMS, and that's it? And then something something about Tiktok, Christ almighty. Get yourself together, reflect on what you were doing in this relationship to be an ass to her as well, because I know you have been, you sound like a spoiled soykaf. You have no clue how bad a relationship can get you stupid cunt. I've known men who went through hell in the court system battling crazy girls, and they never get that sour attitude you have.

>>101219 kid? I'm 20 bro. I said that was an old story god damn

>>101219 bro I was a kid, this happened 5 years ago, and btw I never said that I didn't do anything wrong. I have done bullshit, but this picking on me for how I feel about something is a bit of an exaggeration. You can't argue how I feel about a thing, but only how I react. I have forgiven her, and I realize that I have done bad things too, but I don't care about how some people had more difficult battles. It's like I told you I haven't eaten in 2 days and you said "oh well my grandma went to a concentration camp and didn't eat for 2 weeks once and she wasn't as sour as you are now" And btw "that's it" is really not what you write to someone expressing their feelings. You didn't live the thing so you can't know how I felt it. I didn't tell the whole story, I just told the most important things. You don't know me and you don't know her, so don't be so rude next time someone talks about an horrible event of their life. (I was hated on for stuff I didn't do and had to left the group that lead the group of my main hobby)

>>101068 awwww this is so cute and sad. She definitely liked you but had some mental soykaf going on. Happens all the time.

>>101221 >>101222 My apologies, your posting style made me think you were still a teenager and that this happened 1 or 2 years ago. The fact that you are twenty and complaining about this actually makes everything much worse, I would have been a little more forgiving if you were that age . Maybe I misunderstood what she did, you weren't very cohesive in your OP, but it sounds like pretty normal teenager drama to me. I was bullied all throughout high school, and now I'm an adult, I feel forgiving to any of those people who did me wrong. I genuinely have no resentment for them. We were all teenagers then, we were all stupid and inexperienced with the world, and there's no point holding a grudge over those things. We've all grown up and changed. You don't need your feelings validated when you are clinging to dumb drama from five years ago. What you need is to get some perspective and realize how inconsequential and pointless that is to remember. Be a little stoic my man. Because if you write and people assume you are still a teenager you should know you are doing something wrong.