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Have any lainons here had intense murder fantasies with sexual elements? I have been experiencing occasional bursts in my mind of a growing urge to find an unsuspecting target, somewhere far my usual stomping grounds, take them, and make them my sexual plaything for a time until I am ready to dispose of them. It is a feeling I have never had in this intensity before, and never to this depth. I never expected my sexual life to start infecting my everyday thoughts to this extent; that is, to the point of creating a growing desire to kidnap, rape and murder someone for sexual gratification. Can someone help me cope with this? If anyone has had this glitch before, please share your experience and how you fixed it!

I've had sexual fantasies of being murdered, I almost asked my girlfriend who is usually very submissive but also likes being hurt to cut me with a razor blade but decided against it cause it was early on in the relationship and I didn't want to scare her off.

no, but it doesn't seem like something i would take seriously. Like if I was just intensely angry at someone and then realize how edgy i was being. Which you are now.

>>3259 You have issues you need to speak to someone about.

>>3258 >Can someone help me cope with this? Yeah. They're called psychiatrists.

>Found inside OP's pic exif data : CaptionRussell Johnson is proposing to undergo a form of chemical castration to convince a review board to release him to a medium security psychiatric hospital. Johnson, considered a sexual sadist, has been at Oak Ridge - the maxium security division of the Mental Health Centre at Penetanguishene - for the past 21 years. He was found not guilty by reason of insanity for murdering seven women and attacking 10 others from 1973 to 1977. (CP PHOTO) 1998 (files-Toronto Star) I hope you'll be able to control theses fantasies before you end up like this dude.

>>3266 I have not done anything brash yet. I currently have many reasons for not following through on this trick of my mind... I have only recently noticed these urges taking on a darker hue than they once had. I often had strong sexual impulses, but they were generally what I would consider normal for any person toward others, and were fairly simple to put away. As of late however, I have been especially lonely and lack any really close friends...I am not sure if these factors are to blame, but my urges are growing in intensity and seem to be more and more focused on violent content...especially as it relates to a few specific fetishes I have. It is as if I have grown tired of living in my sexual imagination and have a subconscious desire to impress my fantasies into reality. Is this really just me? no one else around here has had anything like this? some part of me is scared right now, I am not sure what to do or how to change this shift in mental content. It is not something I initiated knowingly, it is almost as if it arose from somewhere in my mind that I cannot access, like it is part of my subconscious mind... Please, if anyone here has handled something fitting this description before, let me know what to do!

>>3262 Im talking to a counselor but I don't want to tell her about that stuff because she sees me as really innocent and super sweet. itd just be weird, and I don't think id ever like ask someone to kill me during sex but I know if someone offered and i liked them id say yes.

>>3271 >I am not sure if these factors are to blame They aren't. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder ten years ago. I have no friends. Absolutely no. I isolated myself from society. Lack of friends and loneliness doesn't have anything to do with the fuarrrked up thoughts you're having. Not even schizoaffective disorder has me wanting to fuarrrk and kill people. You are fuarrrked and the only people that can help you are medical professionals. Now stop being an attention whore edge lord and go and speak to some.

Having fantasies and acting on them need to be separate I am a sexual sadist/masochist. In the moment sometimes it feels like my goal is to inflict as much pain as possible... yet i know i could easily kill my sub if i wanted to, if im not careful The key to bringing fantasy to real life is voluntarism. As long as all parties consent to what is going to happen (and can do so safely, aka dont choke them until they are dead) then by all means, enjoy yourselves OP what you are describing is involuntary. Not ok. Yet Denying these feelings, attempting to drown them will only make them burn more... The solution is to find voluntary sexual acts that soak up some of these feelings. Ask yourself why it is that murdering an innocent victim and turning them into your sexual rag doll for a while is so attractive. How can you funnel this sexual passion in a more healthy way. Then ask yourself do you really want to contribute more evil to this world? Carrying out your fantasy as youve described is evil OP, fantasy itself is not evil but acting on these particular thoughts... No one loves evil people, no one wept when Dahmer was murdered in prison. They all rejoiced If these thoughts are real find some way to channel them into safe sexual passions, not ones where you actually murder someone

>>3294 Ill try this. Thank you. I have been trying to focus my energies into exercising and mathematics. I have thus far had no issues, except that the intensity of these "attacks" has been trending notably upward for some reason. I have previously been very nervous about seeking a partner for such personal purposes, having someone so close would require me to trust them with information that I have traditionally been very sensitive about. How does one orchestrate and manage such a relationship in a safe and healthy fashion?

>>3299 You have to understand not everyone will accept you. When it gets to that moment where you tell them if they leave its sad but it had to happen. If you hide less stuff with everyone its easier because then people who are likeminded or accepr you are obvious from the start but I know thats difficult. Also decide how much of what your hiding is really that important. Is it really something part of your identity or is it something you can let go of to compromise and be a more "normal" person. You don't need to tell everyone everything even if it can seem like you do with a person you love and trust.

>>3299 You can probably tell by now that no one else here has these kinds of fantasies. While acting out some sadism with a willing participant may help, I think you should definitely talk to a professional. Don't worry about what your therapist thinks, she's there to help you. And if you are putting up a facade having her believe you're so sweet and what not, you need to let go and be honest with yourself and her, otherwise you're wasting your money. Did you have any kind of trauma growing up?

yikes, would recommend seeking professional help. for me the weirdest thing I have is that voice in the back of my mind that tells me to jump in the path of that incoming bus or train. but hear that's a common enough feeling that i don't feel too concerned about it.

>>3318 I grew up around a family of hellfire and brimstone baptist preachers from arkansas and a mix of unfriendly drug addicts from a young age until I was about 10. I do not consider it traumatic, because no one directly harmed me in any way, it was a very psychologically trying time is all. I remember espousing religious doubts and being harshly reprimanded by all 5 of my uncles at once. One of them shook me down for the little bit of cash I had earned selling watches at my school once. That is about as close to being physically abused I got though. My university offers therapy services for free to students through the psychology department. I went and applied yesterday. Thanks for the direction, do not know why I had not thought of it previously.

>>3258 I don't know much about what you are describing, but it sounds like you may have a personality disorder. I recommend you seek professional help.

>>3273 It's ok man, just find a different counselor that you feel more comfortable with.

>>3271 You're not alone bub. I urge you to take care of this quickly. Talk to a psychologist?

>>3271 You're not alone. There's no shame in seeking help.