Illness

Not sure where else to post this. Would there be any drugs, preferably non recreational, that can induce serious illness easily? Cancer or something else that would kill me if I don't let it get diagnosed. I want to die and have them find a valid reason for it so people won't be sad.

>>3773 People WILL be sad, stick with your usual drugs and live your life, be it good or bad.

Cigarettes, technically. OR chewing tobacco, if you really hate yourself.

>>3775 I know they will still be sad, but I'll have had a reason for dying at least. I was actually getting my life back together with low doses of heroin, as weird as it sounds. Only on heroin could I get the motivation to seek pschological help and it was helping. But I just got scammed by a vendor from my last money so I'm out of $ and H and thus no longer can get myself to go out to my psychiatrist anymore. I just want it to be over now.

the International agency for research on cancer (IARC) has lists of carcinogen compounds: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_IARC_Group_1_carcinogens also there's radiations which cause cancer, the most easy to get imo is UV-C radiation, by a germicid lamp. but be aware that these may take very long time to get cancer and very long time after that to die with very lots of suffering. if i were you i would just kms and make it look like an accident. (i can't think of any scenario atm, but motorcycles have lots of accidents, and it's very easy to die on them, just make it sure you don't kill or injure anybody else) also i'd like you not to die, please live lainon i love you :3

>>3781 Thanks for the advice. I'd considered a traffic accident but it's very hard to pull off without potentially hurting other people, and I'm not that selfish. I'm a pacifist and absolutely do not want to harm strangers, and want to minimise harm to my loved ones as much as possible. Thanks for the advice though.

Going on a hiking trip and falling off a cliff could be interpreted as an accident, but its technically a gray area. Im sorry you go trough such a rough time, i dont usually care much when people die, but seeing another lainon go is always a sad things. I hope your luck improves and you reconsider.

>>3773 You should get therapy instead.

If you are seriously considering dying, I would say to do it in a way that benefits the human race. Even if your life is meaningless, don't make your death meaningless. That being said, I would definitely prefer if another lainon didn't die. Too many already. Do not go gentle into that goodnight. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

>>3792 are there confirmed deaths of users of this board? >>3783 what's sad about lainons dying but not when other people die?

>>3792 What would be a way of dying that benefits the human race though? Stabbing myself inside a hospital so they can harvest my organs?

That you die by "accident" or suicide will not change the fact that people will be sad.

>>3796 Yeah but they will be less upset, it will seem less selfish.

>>3797 Are you really so impatient?Life is short of basically.If you are a man you can hope to live around 86 years old.for most people 86 years is a difficult time to apprehended like in the field of space the distances are unimaginable in our head. But if we convert to 86 in the week we find 4484.29 weeks which is not an abstract number for our mind.you realize it is in all that 4500 week end to be free it is very short, there is 3600 seconds in an hour.Give yourself a little more time to think about it.it's when you have nothing to lose that you are the freest.the fear of death is something that prevents people from moving forward. to lose that fear allows one to use one's life for absolutely anything, from the most stupid thing to the most honest of actions.Whether it's a good life or a bad life, it may be your only conscious experience before you are no longer.Do what you want I'm just a unknown.I just think it's sad for someone who empathizes people that he will never see again.

>>3797 no, and no.

>>3773 U need about 15g or 7+ middle dried amanita mushroom caps.

You want pity, not death. Examine your feelings more closely and try to identfy them

>>3796 It's more considerate, if OP hangs himself for example, all his family and friends will be thinking - "What could we have done, we just didn't know, how could we have helped him?" etc. That will always be lurking in their minds. >>3811 Surely if he wanted pity he'd take a non-lethal amount of pills accompanied with a soppy note? This seems like a very selfless way to go all things considered.