Sucked Into Hell - Heroin Experience

This story is still quite recent, so I may provide further updates in the replies to this post. Some of you may recognize this story as quite similar to the u/SpontaneousH story, albeit with a little more foreshadowing. For starters, I am an 18 year old female and have my fair share of prior experience with other drugs. However, nothing I've taken, none of my research could've prepared me for the living nightmare that heroin would suck me into. I'm not going to read off the list since I've noticed that it's becoming a cliche within this community, but it is relevant that I have had brief experience with oxycodone before, about 5 months before this story. I believe that the memory of it and how much I loved it probably contributed to my heroin addiction. I had been coming off of an adderall binge and I was crashing really badly after I got off of work. My friend who sold it to me told me he could get me ketamine to help deal with the withdrawal long enough for him to get his hands on some more adderall to sell me. As I was coming off of the adderall, I became very agitated, texting him demanding him to hurry up before he eventually told me he was too busy and couldn't get it to me. I was extremely distraught and started to get desperate. I got off my train the same as I have been every time I get off work, but this time I had a mission. I needed something, anything to take the edge off. I happen to live in a city where it is relatively easy to get your hands on opiates, whether they're high quality or not cut with anything is pretty unlikely, but easy to get your hands on nonetheless. I started by quite literally just asking people on the street if they had anything on them, and when they inevitably were confused that a disheveled-looking girl clawing at her arm is begging them for drugs, I'd move on to the next person. Rinse and repeat this cycle for another like 5 people before I stumbled across a guy who told me "I know someone." and gave me his number. Satisfied, I got on the bus home and started texting him. I asked if he had any ketamine, to which he said no, but that he could get me a half gram of heroin for $40. Reading this over and over again to figure out if it was real, I was floored. I seriously came to this dilemma. I've heard plenty about how hard heroin is to quit, and ironically enough, I have seen the aforementioned u/SpontaneousH story. I don't really know how the following events even managed to happen without an ounce of "maybe I shouldn't do this". A horrible thought came over me. "What if I said yes? Sure heroin is hard to quit, but I'll have something to fill the void soon, what could possibly go wrong?" I did it. I told him, "I'll take the H". I came home and my mom told me that I have a prescription to go pick up, giving me an opportunity to meet up with my dealer. Getting into my car, I still couldn't process the fact that I'm on my way to buy heroin from a guy I met at the train station. I arrived at the pharmacy, told the guy that I have to do a couple of things first, and I walked in. My heart started pounding as I gave the pharmacist my name and date of birth. Checking my wallet, I didn't have enough to buy the stuff, so I had to go to the front and get another 20. When the cashier saw me and heard me ask if they did cash-back at the register, I saw that something clicked inside her. She looked at me with a subtle fear and concern in her eyes before reluctantly starting the transaction. My hands begin to tremble as I put the bill in my wallet. He was waiting outside for me, but I couldn't seem to find him. I sent him a text asking where he was, turned around, and he was there. I froze for a second as it dawned on me what I'm about to do. Afraid to turn back, I gave him the money and he gave me a small, wrapped-up piece of tin foil. I got into my car and opened it up to see a folded sticky note with a bunch of a white semi-powdery substance. (In hindsight, this was probably low-quality H cut with god-knows-what.) Driving home my car was silent. Normally, even in situations where I'm barely able to process what just happened, I talk to myself a lot in the car. That day it fell silent. For a while I acted normal, waiting for the moment my parents closed their eyes to go to bed, and when it happened. I took out the powder, put a little bit aside on my desk, and snorted it. Waiting a few minutes, I didn't feel anything, so I did another small bump, waited a minute, and the most pleasurable feeling I've ever felt washed over me as I slowly started to lean back in my chair. No drug I've ever taken, none of the research, none of the stories I've read could've prepared me for that feeling. Everything felt right, I forgot what I was even on, and I nodded off with a look of intoxicated euphoria on my face and a clear mind. I didn't care if I got addicted, I felt like I was perfectly willing to throw my life away for that feeling. I don't remember exactly what else happened that night, but what little I remember tells me that I probably spent the rest of that night doing absolutely nothing and nodding off for god knows how long. I woke up the next day confused, lethargic, and shaky. What the fuarrrk happened last night? I remembered I had taken something, because the intense euphoria of the night was still in the back of my head. I didn't remember what I was on, just that something that happened last night caused me to feel incredibly good. I checked my discord to see if I had told my friends about any of this, and to my horror, I found keysmashed gibberish messages I had sent roughly translating to "I just fuarrrking did heroin" and "Holy fuarrrking soykaf I feel amazing". My heart sank. That word repeated inside my head. Heroin. Heroin. Heroin. I thought I must have said the wrong thing because I was just really high, but I felt an intense sinking cold sweat go down my spine. I just did heroin and it's the morning after. Surprisingly by this point I wasn't completely terrified and tried to convince myself that I could handle the withdrawal to come and that my fate wasn't sealed yet. I was so fuarrrking wrong. With every passing hour of that day the urge to relapse grew and grew. My body was begging me for more. I made it to 4PM before I couldn't take it anymore and took just a small bump to make the sweating and shaking go away. It felt good, but paled in comparison to the night before. I called up my friend and begged him for advice. He told me he didn't know what to do because he had no experience with heroin and had never been THAT addicted to a substance before. He told me that if I can't stop taking it then my best bet was to finish off the bag but wean myself off so I don't completely lose my mind. I agreed and as the second dose wore off I started playing call of duty to try and distract myself. I realized that I had work tomorrow, but didn't feel too bad about it since I still had some heroin in my system giving me a false sense of security. I woke up the next day feeling dopesick but confident that I can make it through the day without using again. When I was on the train to work and walking to the store I work at, my stomach began to hurt. I told myself that I was experiencing the worst of it and carried on. Eventually the stomach pain got so bad that I had to run to the bathroom and had the worst diarrhea I've ever had in my entire life. When it was over I was violently trembling and hyperventilating with my eyes wide open and a horrified look on my face. I realized what was going to happen. It had to happen. So I reached in my wallet, pulled out the bag, poured a small bit of powder onto the sink, lined it up with my metro card, and sniffed it. I spent another 4 hours working desperately trying to fight the nod and not look fuarrrked up. I had to constantly walk around the store and restock things and after 4 hours my body felt like it was going to give out from the exhaustion and my manager saw me, offered to let me go home, and I thanked her profusely and begged her to not fire me. On the train home I was fighting to stay awake and finally arrived home after my mom picked me up from the bus stop because my bus broke down. Present Day: I collapsed onto my bed and fell asleep for god knows how long. I woke up around 1am (3 hours before posting this), and I took an edible to brace myself for the impending withdrawal tomorrow. I am really stoned while writing this, so it's taken me like 2 hours. I hope this will be enough to get me through the next week. I'm still terrified for my life and honestly don't know what I'm going to do. Someone please get me out of heroin hell, I beg you.

>>19495 if i had a dollar for every time i heard this...

>>19496 "He" is just a tourist trying to derail the thread and lower quality of discussion. Thanks for the story and I hope you can get clean. You should try Suboxone if you can get ahold of it, you can also self medicate with kratom or hydroxymitragynine, or tianeptine. Ideally you want to join an opioid agonist therapy program wherein you are prescribed something other than methadone, they will typically give Suboxone if you can avoid methadone. It is also possible to get a dextromethorphan / bupropion combined prescription from someplace which apparently has some helpful opioid receptor activity and then there is the designer drug 3-ho-pcp which has opioid activity in addition to the nmda action that ketamine and PCP do. But at this point you should ask yourself what you want your relationship to drugs to be, and for each drug what relationship exactly. Do you never want to get high on opiates again? If so you will need to find something to fill the void, I've heard exercise can help because it causes your endogenous morphine to circulate. Alternatively, do you want to not wind up begging strangers for H like this? In that case you will want to find a steady supply of something, I recommended a number of legal or grey area alternatives that are unlikely to be cut with fentanyl or xylazine which you do not want under any circumstances. Do you want to do pills exclusively? In that case you should recognize that you will run out at some point, you will be spending long periods without them and you need to be able to accurately assess how you will act in those scenarios. This isn't about moral failing to yourself from a dedication to getting better, it is being realistic about what your needs are and basing expectations on what you've done before, and most importantly why.

>>19497 thank you so much for the actually helpful advice. i'm not certain what all my options are because money is tight rn but i have some connections and might be able to secure a steady supply of something better. i don't nessecarily intend to swear off opiates but i probably should. i think the combination dextromethorphan / bupropion would actually be a great idea for me since in the past microdosing DXM has actually helped me with my major depressive disorder. i might ask my psychiatrist about it. >But at this point you should ask yourself what you want your relationship to drugs to be i don't intend to quit everything, just heroin >Do you never want to get high on opiates again? i'm kind of nervous with the idea of ever doing opiates again but i'm open to something less hard than H. >Do you want to do pills exclusively? that would probably be a better idea for me, but i don't really trust my pill guy with anything other than bead-capsule adderall. >This isn't about moral failing to yourself from a dedication to getting better thank you so much. you have no idea how much that means to me.

>>19498 You're welcome and im happy to help. have been trying to fall asleep for the last 4 hours to no avail, so hopefully I can do something kind with my insomnia x.x

>>19499 as of right now i'm just really stoned from an edible i took a few hours ago, but so far i'm doing msotly okay. the only symptom i really have is that i keep shaking my leg and my arms, neck, and face are itchy. i keep applying lotion but it isn't really helping much. i dont know how i'm going to make it through today but i have to take this like 5 seconds at a time

>>19492 I've been some ways into drug addiction, I can recommend while you're tapering: Try to 3x your budget for snacks Shower / bathe more if you feel like it Drink extra coffee / tea / smoke more if you can stomach it Pull out the guilty pleasure media Go to a long movie at the cinema and get a big popcorn and coke or a few beers Old school runescape / new skyrim playthrough Energy drink / fruit juice Canned fruit, deserts The point is to have overmuch sticky stuff distracting you, but it's stuff with less addiction potential / less steep health consequences. Like I smoke a ton of tobacco - I have it minmaxxed so I can get as much nicotine in without getting ashtray mouth - but I don't have a weed or alcohol habit anymore, and can swap coffee out for tea in a day. GLHF

>>19500 You should try taking some Benadryl (diphenhydramine). It should help with the itch, I took it last time I smoked h and it made me feel a bit better. Hope you can get cozy..

>>19501 >Shower / bathe more if you feel like it i know this is tmi but showering for me has been so fuarrrking difficult ever since i was a kid because of my eczema. i try so fuarrrkign hard but whenever water gets into my open sores it's excruciating. >Drink extra coffee / tea / smoke more if you can stomach it definitely should lol >Energy drink / fruit juice i should probably buy myself a few monsters now that i think about it.

Moderate exercise, fresh air and sunlight Relaxation techniques, putting on a good album https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=McjFepEpcBE Forgot to list these. I wouldn't go with anything heavier than (known clean) cannabis, just tobacco and coffee if that can be had reliably and in volume. I've had hangovers where weed would've been overdoing it, though the shop weed where I live is unreliable and an edible like you're doing can be safer, more of a body effect.

>>19503 I had atopic eczema growing up, for me it was stress from school and my mom meddling with my diet. Also I wash with water and just green soap, or baking soda, no deodorant. Maybe a bit of shampoo when I feel like it, I don't always have a tight "skin health budget". Hope you figure something out. Cool / lukewarm shower without soap may irritate the least.

>>19504 guy i work with got soykafty heroin once instead of what he asked for he already had a meth addiction and that allegedly made it easier to quit the h rehab, a few years of probation, a job, "spirituality" and desire for cash and hood status seemed to take care of the other addictions. idk if this helps, im one of those square ass nerds. i like good brain think, and epilepsy makes sure anything harder than a puff off a joint kills me within an hour. consequently my dug advice is lacking :(

>>19506 >guy i work with got soykafty heroin once instead of what he asked for the h i got was terrible quality and probably mostly fentanyl. i live in a city where it's easy to get opiates but not good ones. >job i have a new job that i actually care about and want lined up starting next monday, so having that over a soykafty job that i hate may help me not relapse. >im one of those square ass nerds it's hip to be square. don't end up like me.

>>19492 >Surprisingly by this point I wasn't completely terrified and tried to convince myself that I could handle the withdrawal to come and that my fate wasn't sealed yet. >withdrawals >It felt good, but paled in comparison to the night before. >tolerance >after a single dose >after a single dose > had the worst diarrhea I've ever had in my entire life > coming off of one dose saving the biggest lie of all for last > I am an 18 year old female please correct the above, basically impossible to suspend my disbelief long enough to enjoy the story as-is

>>19508 have you not done heroin before?

>>19492 One last trick: if you have an organic foods shop nearby and they have "hemp tea"... it's not weed, it's dry as fuarrrk, but it may provide some relief if you take out the seeds (and any big branches) and roll it into a spliff.

>>19508 >withdrawals after one dose have you not done heroin before? >tolerance after a single dose i didn't have tolerance, i took LESS THAN BEFORE because i was trying to WEAN OFF >diarrhea after one dose because it's fuarrrking HEROIN >I am an 18 year old female i don't know what to tell you dude, i know this is ragebait and all but unironically u just gotta accept that there are different people on the internet and that we are, you guessed it, different ages and genders.

>>19508 >withdrawals opioid withdrawals after one night is odd, but she was already going through adderall withdrawals which can be awful. my guess is she's still experiencing them and conflating the effects of adderall withdrawal with heroin withdrawal, and conflating opioid hangover and first timer's remorse with withdrawal as well. and probably some nocebo effect. >diarrhea this is the only thing that's really odd since opioids cause constipation. whenever I've done any opioids, i don't soykaf for a couple days. but with adderall withdrawal of top of it, it could happen. >>19492 >felt like I was perfectly willing to throw my life away for that feeling. i remember the first time i had that thought. it inspired me to do more harm reduction research and take spacing out doses more seriously. how long was your adderall binge? if it wasn't too long and you don't cop more drugs (adderall or heroin) you'll feel better in a few days. >18 you're too young for hard drugs. take a pause until your mid twenties. much lower risk of addiction if you wait until then. you can fuarrrk up your brain by doing drugs now and then have to avoid them for the rest of your life, or you can wait a few years and have a healthy relationship with drugs for the rest of your life. also stop buying from the guy who tried to convince you ketamine would help with adderall withdrawals. if he actually believes that then he's a fuarrrking moron who should not be dealing drugs, and if he doesn't believe it then he was trying to take advantage of your desperation.

>>19516 >my guess is she's still experiencing them and conflating the effects of adderall withdrawal with heroin withdrawal, and conflating opioid hangover and first timer's remorse with withdrawal as well. and probably some nocebo effect. that probably is what happened, to a small extent the anxiety and paranoia kind of overlap. > it inspired me to do more harm reduction research i wish i was as smart as you lol, i didn't give a soykaf about harm reduction i just wanted to get fuarrrked up >how long was your adderall binge? it was only 3-4 days, i know it wasn't much. i went from having not taken any in 2 years to snorting 180mg within like 3 days. i think a lot of the withdrawal from that was just psychological anxiety from being sober. >you're too young for hard drugs. all of this began when i was 14, i really am too young for this soykaf. i know i'm not going to be able to stop ALL drugs but the least i can do to save myself is to get off of heroin. >you can fuarrrk up your brain by doing drugs now and then have to avoid them for the rest of your life i've accepted that i probably already have. i've done so much pathetic, fiendish, and depraved soykaf and i'm not even old enough to rent a fuarrrking car. my fate maybe sealed, but i'm going to squeeze another 5 years out of my pathetic life by getting off of heroin.

>>19492 update 2: i can't fuarrrking get it out of my head. i don't know what to do. i'm a hair trigger away from relapsing. if i can't find anything to fill the void by the start of my shift tomorrow i'm relapsing i cant fuarrrking take it anymore i need it so fuarrrking bad

>>19517 >i've accepted that i probably already have. i've done so much pathetic, fiendish, and depraved soykaf and i'm not even old enough to rent a fuarrrking car. no, your brain is probably fine, or at least it's not irreparably damaged by drugs. people do pathetic, depraved soykaf when they're young, and young people are notorious for being bad at doing drugs. you'll be fine as long as you don't dig yourself any deeper into the hole.

>>19519 >you'll be fine as long as you don't dig yourself any deeper into the hole. i think the plan for now is to just backtrack to less hard drugs

>>19492 This story is completely 100% not real. You went from only trying oxy a few times to getting dopesick from 1 single night of snorting H? Yea uh, no. When I was 18 I was shooting 10-20 bags of real H a day, and it takes a while before you start to get the withdrawal. Story is 100% fake, if not you at least tricked yourself into believing you were sick.

>>19522 ok fuarrrking great cool you had it worse than me it's not my fau lt some people are fuarrrking pussies who can't handle real drugs

>>19492 >metro card So NYC? Used to score scag and fent there all the time when I was younger, God willing 3.5 years clean dec 1.

>>19524 >so NYC? no, minneapolis, i just use the term "metro card" for the LR/bus cards they use there>>19524

>>19523 No that is not the point. Nothing you say there is what I was implying what so ever. The point is speaking from experience doing Heroin daily at the age of 18 I know you are full of soykaf. Please get help and stop posting.

>>19526 there's no fuarrrking convincing you people so i'll just stop trying to get help. fuarrrk all of you and fuarrrk this godforsaken website.

>>19527 Posting about using heroin is not asking for help with using heroin. Going to rehab is asking for help using heroin. Have a blessed thanksgiving man.

>>19522 Latin here, I've never felt or witnessed opiate addition first hand so how does the tolerance in a substance weight sense get when it gets that bad. I generally conceptualize my substance in finished precut form so that amount is scary high reading (on a gram by gram or teenth by whatever basis).

>>19532 When I was 18 the bags I would get were skimpy, in my part of the world a "bag" means "1 hit". At that time I was getting like 20mg bags of unknown purity H. Regardless opiates are notorious for having a tolerance that goes sky high quickly, and also a tolerance that can drop quickly (often leading to overdose).

>>19528 >Going to rehab is asking for help with using heroin Rehab is a moralized vacation for some and for others a manner of incarceration, tge more you're around druggies you begin to realize this. People like rehab because it satisfies all the societal codes of sin and redemption but the reality is that it is never that simple, most people in rehab will go into rehab several times and some rehab programs have outcomes as low as 25% maintained sobriety after 1 year. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31254749/ tl;dr if you want to see meaningful results you need to find a program that has integrated mental health services and practices continuity of care, i.e. outpatient following inpatient. There are also better outcomes for those who are in treatment for 6 months minimum. >Talking online about it is not getting help Sure but while she's here we might as well help her think it through, this stuff is not obvious and offering advice isn't the same thing as handholding >>19525 >>19517 Now that you are thinking of harm reduction just looking up "minneapolis harm reduction" online has links to some decent resources, like https://www.streetworksmn.org/oopr/harm-reduction-resources/ which most importantly links to medication-assisted treatment program and and drug use counseling services, as well as supervised tapering which seems ideal for you as you've mentioned withdrawals. Medication assisted treatment is what you want because it has comparatively good outcomes over other programs like narcotics anonymous / 12 step. You can do the rest yourself but thankfully you have healthcare, and maybe some friends who care about you. I had a minor benzo problem when no healthcare and no real friends at the time either. Be safe.

>>19509 >>19513 >have you not done heroin before? I've done pretty much ever opiate but heroin, including oxymorphone and morphine. I've also gone on ~7 day benders with said drugs, and never experienced any tolerance or physical withdrawals. Hell, even the cravings were just: "Oh that'd be nice to do again today." But my personal use history is beside the point, because opiates don't cause physical withdrawals after a single dose. To quote the omnissiah: ""Opioid withdrawal is a set of symptoms arising from the sudden cessation or reduction of opioids where previous usage has been heavy and prolonged.[1][2]"" >>19513 >i didn't have tolerance, i took LESS THAN BEFORE because i was trying to WEAN OFF Ah, must've misread it. Btw "weaning off" is the dumbest soykaf you could possibly do in this situation. Literally just stop doing heroin. It's that simple. >>19513 >i don't know what to tell you dude, i know this is ragebait and all but unironically u just gotta accept that there are different people on the internet and that we are, you guessed it, different ages and genders. I know of ~2 biological females that actually have posted on this site. I'm willing to accept the unlikely event of a third, but then you add on hilariously unlikely things: - a new female on lain (3% odds) - using heroin on lain (4% odds) - instant heroin withdrawals on lain (1% odds) - magical instant heroin addiction story on lain (10% odds) so I become suspicious that I am being lied to. Btw none of that applies if you are a troon, then I believe this story 100%. >i didn't have tolerance, i took LESS THAN BEFORE because i was trying to WEAN OFF >i don't know what to tell you dude, i know this is ragebait and all but unironically u just gotta accept that there are different people on the internet and that we are, you guessed it, different ages and genders. >>19516 >my guess is she's still experiencing them and conflating the effects of adderall withdrawal with heroin withdrawal, and conflating opioid hangover and first timer's remorse with withdrawal as well. and probably some nocebo effect. infinitely more likely. >>19516 >this is the only thing that's really odd since opioids cause constipation bing bing bing on the money clogged pipes is the only side effect opiate abuse has given me. and that STILL took a week straight of dosing to achieve. >>19517 >>19518 >i know i'm not going to be able to stop ALL drugs but the least i can do to save myself is to get off of heroin. Just stop. Put the drugs down. Chew gum instead. People make it sound hard, but it is really just that simple. >>19522 Finally, the real fuarrrkin dopefiend lain rolls in. I knew we had a couple stashed around this place. >>19534 all this rehab talk would be fine and dandy for a real fuarrrkin dope fiend IF this is even real, this is an 18 year old that supposedly has taken two (2) (1+1) doses of heroin total, ever, period. all this lain needs to do is flush the bag and grow a single vertebra, not even a whole spine. 1 - Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders: DSM-5 (5th ed.). American Psychiatric Association. 2013. pp. 547–549. ISBN 978-0-89042-554-1. 2 - Volkow, Nora D.; Blanco, Carlos (2020-01-02). "Medications for opioid use disorders: clinical and pharmacological considerations". The Journal of Clinical Investigation. 130 (1): 10–13. doi:10.1172/JCI134708. ISSN 0021-9738. PMC 6934219. PMID 31763992.

Fake.... Obviously fake Overly obviousky fake (Body too short to post, where as ops body is too long to be legit and not a story)

>>19541 When I said going to rehab, I must concede I did not mean that in an absolutely literal sense as much as it so appeared. I just meant that when someone is saying "I NEED HELP WITH DRUGS" on a place like this they are not really asking for help with drugs at all, they are just pretending to. When a person says "I am gonna go to get medical help with my drug problem" that is really getting help and being serious about it. Personally I know rehabs are soykaf and generally do not work, that is why I believe in ibogaine as the best treatment for specifically opiate/opioid addicts, other addictions not so much. What we have here is a case of utter bullshit mixed with autism. This thread is full of mostly people who have never used heroin let alone experienced addiction to it, and that includes old pee.

>>19551 why the fuarrrk are you dropping names of random internet junkies and shaming them? who the fuarrrk is old pee lmao

>>19552 >Old Pee >OP Lurk harder

>>19553 lol fkin hell. i really will not lurk harder and infact, will turn back where i came. most of you guys are cool despite my ignorance. i am shamelessly retarded, pic is me btw, no hard fee fees

>>19555 So, what you are saying is...you are an "18 year old girl who just did her first bag of heroin"?

>>19556 yes that is what i'm saying. i, old pee , the 18 year old girl who just did my first bag of heroin. can i suck your dick for some more plz kthx

old pee here, im about to have the worst Diarrhea of my life again! i must fill teh void with more diamorphine ! please please PLEASE give me more herion™ there gonna call me old poo from now on if i dont get a hit soon

>>19559 >>19558 Edibles kicked in when I saw this, lol's ensued.

>>19560 op right now https://youtu.be/PNjxxliraxQ?t=41

>>19561 Even though it is true that opiates make you constipated, the withdrawal also gives you the runs, and sometimes badly. Back when I was 18 shooting dope, we would call the runs the "Aleister Crowley Special" because of the poem he wrote "Leah Sublime". Keep in mind, Crowley also was addicted to H. https://hermetic.com/crowley/poetry/leah-sublime

>>19562 i was somewhat aware it's just that it seemed like it was from the account of a fictional character that's all. i assume thats why they are big on loperamide as it alleviates the poopy side of the wd if im not mistaken. also big up crowly, I WANNA KNOW WHAT U MEANT. I WANNA NOOO WOT U MEEEAAANT YEEEAAAaaaHH

>>19563 Crowely sux, and I didnt even think he was cool back when I was shooting dope for breakfast at 18. But the poem is still hilariously gross and retarded. Also loperamide works for wds because its a potent opioid, just not one that properly crosses the BBB and effects mostly the digestive track as a result. Look up its pharmacology.

>>19565 >sux life sux, reality sux its like methadone innit blud? nah ill let you tell me all about it cause you really want to, don't you?

>>19541 You're assuming the heroin was pure, it's extremely likely it was not. Whatever it was cut with probably exacerbated the poly substance withdrawals. Street heroin tends to have 3 cuts in it minimum. >>19552 Stop trying to make old pee a thing. It was never a thing

>>19572 it is i, old pee. bumping this thread to say this.

>>19541 ngl, guys like you who get completely bent out of shape at the suggestion a girl is using "your" imageboards are more toxic for the culture than anything else. lainchan has 2 women on staff or at least did when it started. tourists who act like its equivalent to whatever 8chan board or incel discord they no doubt came from are the real problem

I have no experience but if you need something to keep off a withdrawl loperamide is sort of an opiate. It is an anti diarrhea medicine. A lot of this might be in your head but also fact you are a female puts you more at risk for addiction.

>>19559 >there gonna call me old poo from now on if i dont get a hit soon best post of lainchan 2025 >>19565 > just not one that properly crosses the BBB fun facts for anyone desperate you can do hood magic to get a weak high off loperamide, but it is dangerous and bad for you, so don't do it >>19588 i dont give a soykaf if girls are here or whatever, i know we have some hanging around. i give a soykaf about people lying about being 18 year old girls who are getting instant heroin addiction+withdrawals+magical poop >guis halp i ate 3 tramadol and now my butthole keeps blasting

>>19600 i would believe an 18 year old experienced this from other causes and thinks its because they did heroin once, it seems like the kind of dramatic story a kid would believe in

>>19492 I hope you are ok now OP

oh yea i remember you old poo. lmao. i was thinking about this thread days ago actually kek

did you intend to write this like you're some Victorian housemaid from london