Best drug mix to od and die

i hate myself so much, like literally i HATE this person i am, useless,weak and unable to do any fuarrrkING thing, i want to kill this body i hate, what is the best mix to leave this world with drugs ? I want to have an insane experience dying

>>16595 If you hate the person you are, kill it, and become someone else, someone you admire. Become the kind of person you would love to be. You don't even need drugs for that. I tried to become that person through drugs but someone close to me convinced me not to use them so instead i got there by thinking A LOT. But i did it. And it was the best thungt i did for myself, ever. Now i find joy in the smallest things and even try to spread it to friends, it's awesome, and that person i used to be is never cominng back

>>16597 >kill it, and become someone else, someone you admire. This. Also you could just die for Israel.

I read fentanyl deaths are pretty common. So fent, I guess? I don't know. I don't know anything. I need to die too.

The one of the best drugs is the adrenaline your own body produces when you try to take one of the people with you that you think made the world into the dystopia that contributed to the way that you are.

Ah... I woke up again. I'm conscious... again... oh soykaf. My life's still fuarrrked... oh soykaf, now I'm conscious of my emotional state... I fuarrrking hate my parents. Ah, I think I'm realizing something... banal realizations, but they hurt. Poverty is a lack of material conditions, but that's not why it hurts. A materially-poor man can be happy or sad. Poverty hurts because it's a stark external reminder that no one wants you, in fact the collective human-entity actively hates you, wants you gone. It's the collective unconscious goading you into suicide. No one wants to talk to you. No one wants to be around you. No one wants to see you. No one knows what to do with you. You're diseased. The herd is actively protecting itself by shunning you. It's a value judgement. People before thought you're worthless, and those that see you now continue to hold that value. I get it. I fuarrrking hate this. You can anchor yourself in objectivity, but that's to deny your humanity. Humanity's evolutionary mechanisms--call them what you will--actively wants you gone. Objectively, nature wants you gone too. Processes want to consume your being. Other animals want your matter. Matter itself decays. It's the impersonal and the personal telling you: you are worthless. You are trash. You are a mistake. I'd like to try and clarify: for what can be said of truth, it doesn't mean these impersonal and personal judgements of you _are_ true, it's just what they're expressing. Rejected by nature, and rejected by man: that's what poverty is. It hurts, and as we are capable of changing, I guess some of us are masochists because we choose to stay in this state as much of a choice as it is. I feel... more confident. I don't think I've lucidly explained my thoughts, but I feel more confident in why I feel depressed and suicidal. I can rationalize it in a way that's more agreeable to me internally, though my externalization of those thoughts are sputtering and muddy. Nature hates all equally, but as man sought companionship and understanding in other men, the poor have been rejected by humanity too. Rejected by man and nature we stand alone. Not unique. Same old story as will be repeated for eternity. There's a beauty in it. At the same time as being rejected, it's a complete embrace and unity of being engulfed and accepted in a process. Ah... I can smile. A genuine smile. The offal of humanity.

>>16608 > Ah, I think I'm realizing something... banal realizations, but they hurt. Poverty is a lack of material conditions, but that's not why it hurts. A materially-poor man can be happy or sad. Poverty hurts because it's a stark external reminder that no one wants you, in fact the collective human-entity actively hates you, wants you gone. It's the collective unconscious goading you into suicide. No one wants to talk to you. No one wants to be around you. No one wants to see you. No one knows what to do with you. You're diseased. The herd is actively protecting itself by shunning you. It's a value judgement. People before thought you're worthless, and those that see you now continue to hold that value. No, it's just capitalism doing what it was made to do. It's not a meritocracy just a rigged raffle. Look at Nichola Tesla. The guy was a genius but lived in poverty. If you know that then you can take advantage of it.

>>16608 >Humanity's evolutionary mechanisms--call them what you will--actively wants you gone. Objectively, nature wants you gone too. Processes want to consume your being. Other animals want your matter. Matter itself decays. It's the impersonal and the personal telling you: you are worthless. You are trash. You are a mistake. An interesting comparison, but I would offer that maybe it is a mistake to gift the same category and reverence to god/the universe/death as to the economy, the state, and the people who cling to artificial material validation and use your deprivation as an anchor point for that. The former is core to our existence and it's hard to imagine facing that honestly without an attitude of respect. The latter may be itself an agent of the former, but also a sad stupid malfunctioning tool. Don't be selfish, try and spare it some of the pity and disgust that it deserves more than you do.

>>16609 >please help me kill me, I hate myself yeah I would too if I was an impotent looser like you

>>16611 imagine the pure rizz of wanting to get mogged by fentanyl blues

why have an insane experience dying when you could just have the insane experience again and again with the whole spectrum of mind altering substances and then decide if you want to die still. This might sound bad but I think I am actually morally superior for saying this because I would rather you be alive running through the gamut of addictions, id rather you be alive blasted on heroin, than for you to decide to just overdose. Thats an extreme too who said anything about those kinds of drugs, why not have the insane experience first instead of deciding you only deserve it if your gonna die after. Go eat a sheet of acid, and just dont take some other thing in tandem that will kill you as you peak. Your at the point where your life is already on the line so who cares if you freak out and run through the streets naked and try to eat someones dog. Who cares if you end up finding out methamphetamine is the only thing that makes life worth living right now. A lack of a desire to live doesnt equate to a need to die, death comes anyways, there is no rush. But you are at a crossroads clearly so why not do the extreme thing and just not plan to kill yourself while doing it. An insane experience like you are asking for already will be the death of you as you know it I think, thats why you are assuming its only right youl have to die after. But you dont, why not just see what you transform into. Take it all. The most tranformative drugs in my mind have always lined up with whats talked about with the most fear and reverance. Sometimes they are transformative not for the experience, but because of over the long run things you find out about yourselves on them. If you were to try an amphetamine or a high (for you) dose of an opiate you might just wonder why you ever wanted to kill yourself and also how you ever lived without it. That is bad, but maybe for you it would be a good thing.