soul retrieval/anxiety

i am spiritually ill. my waking existence is a seemingly endless cycle of panic and anxiety and i desperately wish i could just escape it. i want to be able to overcome it and become stronger, but every day i think about going back to drugs to make the thoughts go away because they hurt me and i just want to be happy again. i used to use drugs and psychedelics to fill the void in my soul with some false awakening but it would always fade eventually and the crushing weight of anxiety and boredom would return and i would keep using. i wish there was something that could make the struggle to overcome it easier in the short term. i dont want to give up. i just wish i had something to make the struggle a little bit easier. like training wheels.

>>12914 Reject the greko-judean notion of individual immortal spirit, embrace the Asian tradition of spirituality being athe link with everything else. Become part of the universe. Accept all the things that happen and realise your misdeeds and triumphs are just temporary ripples in the ocean. Diffuse into the ocean. Let go of worldly desires fully for a second... Come back with less need to succeed and more tolerance for hardship. ??? Profit

>>12918 this but unironically