Don't take drugs before standardized test, people.

>Be me >State testing is today. >pissed, because the soykaf is boring and takes way too long >cheer up after realizing that my friend's gonna hook me up with some addys > other friend gives me some hydros >letsdothisshit.jpg >pop the hydros and adderall 20 minutes before the test. >test suddenly starts the moment the hydros kick in >feels good man >lose all self control >according to my friend i told a guy "did you order a meatlovers, cuz i bet you'll love my meat" >told another dude i put kids in blender >all the while i'm feeling better than I ever have in my life >pic related

>lolol this will give me the excuse I need to act stupid without social repercussions! I hate underage b& so much.

never said what i did was right. I should be the last person anyone looks up to and I'll probably get my soykaf rocked tommorrow. don't be a dumbass like me

>>12853 Seriously, not sure how you could lose that kind of self-awareness and control. Maybe some of the contemporary RC Cathinones will fuarrrk with your reward feedback and exaggerate strange and weird behaviour.

>>12853 sounds like the way in which you chose to speak to people was the worst part.

>do drugs before class >listen to math teacher talking >soykaf, it's on repeat! I'm stuck in a loop and I must get out! >better shiggy diggy out of class all of a sudden in case I do something I'll regret later and go home >classmates tell me next day yeah, teacher kept repeating himself. I bailed over nothing Drugs make school mildly entertaining.

>am 15 >in HS (yuropoor so its specialized trade HS) >first time smoking weed >tell the kid that brought it to smoke before HS at 7 AM >he calls me crazy >whatevs >he trlls me to inhale as much as I can and hold >he told me that because he thought I would choke lile a bitch >was a long time diver and swimmer with massive lung capacity >inhale >inhale >inhale >inhale >little last 5% of forceful intake >"woah stop anon, chill" because I smoked half a joint >hold >hold >hold >fuuuuuuuccckkkkkkkk >was extremely high >first class is "basics of electromagnetism" >everyone is half asleep >im meditating in my chair >I close the blood vessel loop by sitting in yoga pose in chair and clasping hands together >im one with the universe >kids in back of class heard im high af and theyre snickering >teacher tried to motivate the class by asking if someone is willing to explain how a capacitor gets charged with electrons >I put my hand up >the kid that smoked weed with me told me not to fukkin do it >I go in front of class >the kids in the back are snickering and giggling even harder now >everyone is half asleep >I go in great detail explaining how electrons are attracted by positive charge of second side of capacitor >how they all push to be first >picture the lattice of capacitor metal side >explain how they were all pushing fast at the beginning but now when every hole in lattice is filled they cant get into capacitor >explain how this charging up is inverse exponential >explain how the size of capacitor determines how many electrons gets into capacitor >explain how distance between 2 metal plates determines how many electrons will get into capacitor >explain EVERYTHING with great enthusiasm >teacher is amazed >"wow anon, here you go, a 5" >realize I never even studied this and this was first time I approached this topic, only knew electrons and "protons" attracted each other >kids in the back are having a laugh riot >go back to my seat >kid whispers "jesus christ dude, its 8 AM" >sit >kids in the back bump by fist and tap my shoulder >"great job dude hahahhaa" >im trying to get to meditating >a ray of sunshine goes through the window and hits my closed eyes Was a MAZING time to be honest

>do the weed >uh oh it's a test not homework >man I don't care about business >stumble through questions >run out of time >guess a lot of it >get a 60% been in college for almost a decade btw Also I tried sitting through lecture high. Mostly I just felt nervous. Is it that the weed made me nervous in class or that the class nerves are just easier to suppress when I'm sober? Anxiety is an issue in my life anyway.

>>14294 No you're not alone, one day I took a small part of an edible and I went to a lecture where I didn't need to do anything, but I was still trembling with fear I came in slightly late, was too anxious to sit in the front rows where I would usually stay, so I walked back until I found a row where I had to interact with nobody, which was all the way in the back. Then I sat there struggling to see what's on the blackboard and relying mostly on my listening. I was also wondering all the time if anyone knows I'm stoned. Other times I took edibles I went to the gym and gave not a single fuarrrk, I think it's mostly mentality and perhaps whether you think it's appropriate to be high in a given situation.

>getting high out of your mind before doing something important yeah, you shouldn't do that. things get out of control and you'll be much more tired afterwards.

I remember some really strong RC benzo - maybe it was clonazolam? But rather something weaker, maybe flualpra but anyway way tooo strong for me, suprisingly so. So much that i did it at night trying to watch Beavis and Butthead then i fell asleep and i was woken up by my dad who wanted me to help him, and i did not realized at all, how fuarrrked up i am still. I thought i am safe doing it at night and going to sleep but it seems you can wake up fuarrrked up on benzo too. Worst thing about it - you do not realize it, and you want to do some stupid, to talk some bullshit slurring your words, obviously looking like a junkie So they wanted me to help with bringing some large boiler pot, but obviously they seen i will be able to help... Anyway i stayed in the kitchen for some reason, tried to drink a bit of weird fluid from boiler pot, mom almost screamed at me to not do it, i did not even realized this is a pot of hot grease... I think i did even swallowed a bit, but thank god it was not that hot. There was this old guy there, a butcher, he was a friend of my associate back in school who killed himself riding bike at age of 16... For some reason i decided to remind the guy about his dead son, that i knew him and remembered when he died... I tried to find something positive to say about him i guess, so i just told him "such a shame, he was a cheerful guy" - all while slurring my words like a worst scum. Then i listened to mom advice to better go back to bed and i did it staggering every step of the way. Few hours later my sister called me telling me "whatever happens, know that you can always talk to us, we will help you" - probably mom told her what happened. That was only time she told me that, so i guess only time i was sooo not careful when it comes to drugs. Golden times of RC for me - 2016 or 2017, i was unemployed or just starting part time school. In school i did attended few lectures on 1pLSD microdoses (or just half of tab) - calculus lecture on acid that was pretty cool, very cool old teacher. Or english lessons on desmtramadol and scratching all over backs and not even realizing it. Now remembering that - i was pretty cringe back then, also when it comes to personal relationship, way too careless.